Welcome back, Blu... : )

... I'm thinking happy thoughts right now. I've been in a pretty awesome mood for like... well, a while now. I'm loving it. I honestly think it's because (for now, at least) I have pretty much all I've ever wanted. I absolutely COULD NOT ask for more. Seriously, it's beyond good... I'm actually starting to feel comfortable, secure... I feel pieces of me peeking out... pieces of myself... starting to feel less shy - like I'm finally recovering and I don't know how that happened, but DAMN, I'm not complaining. I've missed me, missed having me around...

I'm so happy right now I could cry. I'm crying. If you knew the back story, (which dates back 6-ish years), you'd understand. (I'll probably blog about it and explain at some point). But that's how long I've been gone. I've wanted to come back for a while now, but I didn't have the courage. I didn't have the strength, either. I was too scared. But for quite some time I've had someone in my life who was patient, who deemed me worthy of their time, and I really feel like it's starting to sink in. You know who you are and I appreciate you. I'd be lost without you. I don't feel like my journey back to me is nearly complete, but I feel like I'm making progress. And that feels damn good.