Shadow

Shadow turned 9 last month. 9. That's almost double-digits, yo. That's half-grown. That's... it's like "whoa." I think I say that every year. 😂 It is (of course) exciting and scary and a little sad. Every year he gets a little older and little farther away from being a kid. It's crazy. He's taken on a whole lot of responsibility lately and I'm super-proud of how well he's handling it. Not only that, but this year he had to get some "older" stuff for his birthday. Like his own deodorant and body-wash - and not the kind with Spiderman or the Hulk or something on it. GROWN stuff. That's kind of like, well, "whoa." 😲

His father didn't call him on his birthday this year and I think it's my fault. After a cordial enough phone conversation I was left thinking, "Really? He really thinks it's like that between us?" Well, it's not like that at all and after all this time I finally decided to be frank with him. I don't think I was overly mean or whatever, but I just had to let him know how I felt. Every time he calls it's all about him and his songs and the trouble he's in or the new babies he's made, or (because this is important) what I look like now, or occasionally Shadow. I just had to tell him. And I told him he was welcome to call or *gasp* visit, even, but then we didn't hear from him this year. I guess that might not mean much... he could be in jail again. It didn't ruin Shadow's birthday, though, so whatever.