I hate that every time I think I know what I am going to do...

I hate that every time I think I know what I am going to do something comes up to make me think that maybe I'm making the wrong decision.

So, this weekend I have been MOSTLY pain-free.  It's been really nice.  Since I failed hard at giving myself the methotrexate injection and I've been taking the doubled-dose of pills for a few weeks now I can only assume that I feel ok because of the pills.  The pills that my doctor says are ineffective and wants to take me off of.  🙁

I skipped my dose on Friday with full intentions of getting on a different medication this week, but I'm wondering if that was a bad idea now.  I still have a cough and the water-lung feeling that might cause my doctor to take me off methotrexate regardless, and now I am also getting another known side effect of methotrexate, too.  Mouth ulcers.  Ouch.  🙁

I guess I just have to call the doctor tomorrow and tell them that I feel ok, but I'm having these side effects and let them decide if I should stay the course or switch.  Either way, I think it's pretty clear that I am affected by the pills so an injection is not necessary at this time.

P. S.  I know that I was a huge weenie over that shot, but I think a weekly shot is gonna be the straw that breaks this camel's back.  I've got a lot on me already without this health crap.  I've had a hard enough time accepting that pills are going to be a part of my life now, and I'm just not ready to accept shots all the time.  It's a little bit too far for me right now.  I'm not ready and it's fine.  There are other options out there, so I'm not gonna freak out over that right now.  I will freak out over it when I have no other options.  LOL