I am having feelings today.

I am having feelings today.  I think my old man isn't going to be with me much longer.  🙁

I've been watching Scooter carefully because I am not gonna have him suffering.  Despite the doctor upping his dose of Prednisone his muscles seem to still be deteriorating.  He has a hard time standing up.  He's tripping and stumbling more and he's also unable to hold himself upright on the kitchen floor anymore (no traction).  The other day he was standing in there and just flopped sideways.  Thank goodness he's so short and didn't have too far to fall.

Several times a day he'll just be laying on his side in the floor, barking.  He's always been weird, but he's never done that.

The doctor said that his condition was probably autoimmune so I was hoping for a turnaround.  Last summer was terrible for me and due to my autoimmune arthritis I was barely able to walk without help.  But now I'm ok.  I was really hoping that the same would happen for him, but there is no way to know if it will or not.

He still enjoys chewing bones and he's still eating and using the bathroom.  I've been spoiling him by giving him whatever food he wants.  He loves pound cake so we've been eating a lot of that together.  But I just really feel that our time together is coming to an end.  I am just wondering if I will know when the time is "right."  I have learned from experience that a little too early would be better than a little too late.  I don't want him to feel bad or unhappy.  But I can tell that he feels like crap so maybe it's time now.  Maybe I've already waited too long.  How do I know?