Yesterday was pretty good.

Yesterday was pretty good.  We still haven't been eating out as a general rule, but Shaun and I decided to get curbside pickup from IHOP and invite the kids over for family dinner since we're all still reeling from losing Booka.

I don't want to get too sidetracked on pandemic stuff, but IHOP doesn't have designated areas to park for curbside pickup so you have to call when you arrive.  Shaun called and the hostess was like "Do you want me to bring it out?"  We just looked at each other like "What does she think curbside means?"  We watched a flock of elderly people leave IHOP - none of whom were wearing masks.  The hostess did bring out our order, but of course she pulled her mask down to speak to us.  So... we're just going to continue staying in because that whole experience was nothing short of disappointing.

Anyway, seeing the kids was great.  My heart needed some happy.  We ate and hung out.  We watched a movie and some episodes of our shows.  Shadow played with the cats and talked hair and games with Shaun.  Kira thought she didn't like grapefruit but it turns out that she just hadn't had a fresh one (only some from a package).  She showed us new music and they both told us how things were going at the apartment.  Somehow ended up watching a ton of DIE ANTWOORD videos.  We promised to take Kira to see them if they tour around here again (she wasn't in our lives yet when we saw them before).  I got to hear how my Gramkitty Leon is doing.  Good times.

Today, though - I struggled to even get out of bed.  My chest feels heavy and sad.  There are some things I need to do and have been meaning to do around here, but I'm not sure I have the motivation.  I did start some laundry so I guess that's something.  I know that it's going to sound so dumb, but I feel empty without a dog.  We have 10 cats plus some of the most sociable reptiles I've ever met... I don't want to say that they are not enough, but it's definitely not the same.  I don't know.  Maybe once my heart heals I'll be ok, but for now I just feel really off.

Well, I guess I'm done.  I just wanted to write my feelings.  I hope you all are doing well.  ❤