PMS *cries*

Why, yes - I am going to write about that. I want to talk about how I feel right now. I'm going to try to describe how I feel here because writing is about the only way I can articulate a thought into something anyone else can understand. When it comes to be my lovely time of the month to bleed, (which I do quite enjoy for the most part) I get very emotional. I don't really know how else to describe it other than maybe I just feel more sensitive or fragile. For the most part I feel like crying at everything. No matter what. And a lot of times it makes me feel better; other than I feel like a goober (after the fact) for crying over something like someone's bad breath or being ignored by a cat. Apparently I get bitchy, also, (as I proved yesterday), and that sucks. I hate the fact that I hurt people I care about by losing my temper over things that are not worth making a big deal over. I'm just... emotionally on edge. Some compassion towards me would be cool.

Physically, well... I can sum that up with one word: uncomfortable. My body just doesn't feel like it normally does. I want nothing more than to be somewhere warm with soft things all around. A warm body holding me would be even better, but I'm afraid my stand-offish or aloof thing that I get going on scares anyone away from wanting to be so near me. *sigh* But I'm sure it would make me feel better; it's like I crave it or something. Maybe I need a heating pad - at least that wouldn't be an asshole to me.  Anyway, here are a few things it wouldn't hurt for people to keep in mind:

• I do not want to be picked at.
• I do not want to be in public.
• I do not want to be alone (although I don't want many people around).

• I do want to be cuddled.
• I do want to be warm.
• I do want to be as comfortable as possible.

• I will cry.
• I will take things personally.
• I will get frustrated easily.

So, um... about the aloof or stand-offish thing that I get... I don't know how to explain that. I'm not necessarily unhappy, mad, sad, or whatever... I'm just something else that I don't know how to describe and that's just the reaction I've always had. I wish I knew what it was... I suppose I should do some research about that to see what I can come up with. Maybe I'll just use the word "down" to describe it for now... I'm not energetic or playful or tolerant... Ok, if anyone reads this and knows what I'm talking about please help me out. Tell me what it is. I would really like to talk to some people about this and see what we come up with... or maybe it's just me and I'm abnormal. Who knows.