bittersweetness, from :( to :)

So... I was a little weird yesterday. No big surprise there, I guess. I didn't feel very good... in fact, I felt really bad (as in sick). I didn't want to do anything at all, so me, Nick, and Shadow decided we'd all relax and watch a movie. We put in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory and for some reason I cried through like, the first half. I cried at the little crooked house, I cried at the cute li'l old man, I cried when people wanted to buy the kid's ticket off him, I cried at how utterly strange Willy Wonka looked, I cried when all of the little kids were assholes... damn. That's not all, either - just what I can remember. I didn't think that was supposed to be a sad movie. Really, I think it was more just me and my state of mind. I do that pretty frequently, (get really emotional). A lot of times I laugh or cry sort of uncontrollably. Lately (although it hasn't always been the case) it's been more laughing than anything, but I guess I can't expect to always be jolly - especially when physically I feel like crap. Overall I liked the movie, though. Especially the end. 

As bad as I felt I think last night was pretty good. I was a complete baby, and Nick patiently took care of me. He's more and more awesome every day. Shadow was really sweet, also... he told me I didn't have to read him a bed time story if I was sick. I don't think he could understand how much I appreciated that last night. Also, the little hedgehog sounds coming from the little castle in her tank were so adorable... I just love that thing. She's awesome. I love how friendly she is. I hate to say it, but I want one of my own and so does Shadow... and it's so hard to resist buying more. I really can't right now, though. I mean, I could, but I shouldn't. ...um, THE END.