Thanks, y'all, but there is not a lot anyone can do right now.

Thanks, y'all, but there is not a lot anyone can do right now. I just get SO angry when people don't want to hear me out.

Tuesday, Shadow came home panicking because the vice principal was going to get on the bus and find the smelly kid. Some boy that sits next to him said it was him. Now, my child CAN produce a funk - I am not going to argue that. But he showers in the morning, brushes his teeth, and puts on deodorant every day before school. He also wears clean clothes every day. If his deodorant kicks the bucket before the end of the day that's no good. He is just at the age where things are changing and I think it's normal for kids to be pretty smelly. Even the girls.

So I sent the assistant principal a message and asked her what was going on because Shadow came home really upset. She never called me back. The next day she did get on the bus. She did not sniff the kids, but she did pass out hygiene sheets to all the kids at school. I do not disagree with that because we got them at Munford, too. No biggie. But Shadow came home crying because he was convinced it was his fault. I sniffed him yesterday when I got home and he smelled slightly sweaty - if I got really close. I don't think that that smell would warrant hygiene sheets. I just wish I could convince him that it wasn't his fault. He's really self-conscious right now. And I know me and Shaun probably don't help because if he ever smells we tell him. But it's so he can do something about it - not to be mean.

Between the little asshole stressing my child on the bus and the assistant principal ignoring me I'm pissed. Not to mention that the principal is blowing me off STILL about sending a kid to my house without my permission. I hate being ignored. If you think I'm shit and not worth your time - just say so. You don't have to make me feel like I'm nothing.

ASIDE FROM ALL THAT, I promised Shadow that I'd take him to DC since he didn't get to go on his hugely over-priced Beta Club trip again. I was really killing myself trying to save the money. Like, crazy saving. There was an event that we were all hoping to go to in the next week or so. Me and Shadow are not going because Shaun recognized my stress and told me that I should just chill, save for longer, and take him later. We are going to miss the event that's important to us, but I can still take him to see the city later. But Shaun's still going so I'm annoyed. I would have rather just borrowed the other $200 from myself and gone with him as planned. But he's bought plane tickets so there's nothing I can do to change any of that, either. Everything is out of my hands, and I feel angry, and left out, and powerless. I feel like I fail my kid on so many levels. And that is why I feel shitty.