Got home from work today and CRASHED OUT.

Got home from work today and CRASHED OUT.  Slept for a few hours and now I'm finally getting sleepy again.  Heading to bed again since I have to be up early.  My car is still broken so Shaun will be driving me tomorrow.  I'll be glad to have his company at the market, though, so I'm not complaining.  I'm pretty sure an old lady tried to steal from me last time so I would feel better having another set of eyes with me.

The weather looks nice, but I think I will be cold.  My knees and hips are still very painful so I'll be in snow pants to try to keep my joints warm.  I don't think my upped dosage of Methotrexate is doing the job.  I am planning see Dr. Edmond this coming week.  I have to get my blood tested and see if we can either up my dosage again or look into something else.

My elbows and wrists are starting to hurt when I'm cold so there is almost no joint in my body that feels completely unaffected at this point.  I have the gait of a much older person and I notice that I can't always trust my hands to hold things.  I don't know what is happening, but I feel like I am falling apart.  I feel like the more I try to combat this with medication the harder it fights to take me down.  I absolutely hate that I am scared to feel what I would feel like with no medication at all.

Speaking of arthritis I have to get Nappy to the vet next weekend.  She's been on joint supplements, but they don't seem to be doing much.  If she feels anything like I feel (and I imagine that she probably feels worse - which makes me super sad) then that is NOT ok.  Thankfully, she doesn't have to go to work or do anything she doesn't feel like, but it still makes me feel bad.  This sucks.

P. S.  Is it normal to receive a diagnosis of arthritis without x-rays being taken?  None of the 3 doctors I have seen have bothered to look at my bones.  Dr. Edmond grinds my knees together when he checks me (which I hate with a flaming passion), but is that an accurate way to tell what is wrong with me?