Back when I was diagnosed with PSA...

Back when I was diagnosed with PSA I joined Inspire, a health and wellness support group.  I guess they have groups for every kind of illness.  I don't really know.  But if you're not ok, maybe you should go there and check it out.

I posted there recently because I just feel super not ok.  Apparently, I'm in "the Gap" - that horrible place when you're in pain and your medicine hasn't kicked in yet.  Don't get me wrong - I'm not glad that others are feeling this way, but it's kind of a relief to be able to talk with some people who have the same condition and are living proof that it can (and does) get better.

One of the ladies who has PSA and was also a nurse said that when I talk to my doctor tomorrow I should ask for her to prescribe an NSAID for me to take with my methotrexate.  I think I will.  Also, I found (many hours after the fact) that I missed a call from Dr. Crawford's office so I will call them back right after class tomorrow.  Maybe they don't have bad news for me.

This probably sounds totally weird, but you know how if you have sensitive teeth and you drink something cold - that pain it causes in your teeth?  If Shaun even so much as rests his hand on my thigh I feel that same kind of pain in my knees.  Like my knees have sensitive teeth and his hand is ice water.  I don't know what that means and I'm just too tired to Google it this evening.  It's probably nothing good, though.  😕

After today I am starting to worry that my right knee has become damaged from the inflammation.  I'm having trouble navigating stairs now.  This morning I actually started to consider the possibility that I might need a cane if things don't improve soon.  I guess that's ok.  At least I would have something on hand with which to beat people who invade my space.  😂😂😂

Or it could just be that I'm rebounding because I took steroids.  I have no way to know.

Anyway.  I'm heading to bed.  I feel exhausted.

P. S.  I'm sorry that I'm so whiny and negative.  I just feel pretty devastated right now.  Unfollow me for a while if you need to.  I'm having a hard time thinking about anything other than ways to get through this.  ❤