Currently re-evaluating my life choices over here.

Currently re-evaluating my life choices over here.  I'm home from work early so I can get to the millions of homeworks I have.  I'm tired - as I have been from the very shitty start of this stupid week.  All I want to do is eat chocolate truffles and nap.  And maybe even shower and cry.  I guess it doesn't matter at this point.

For some crazy reason all of my friends think I can do all the things and while I appreciate that I legit feel like I am in over my head this semester.  Trig is hard-ish - at least the amount of work I have to put in is a lot.  Biology is insane - the class after the test I took 6 pages of new notes and while it's not ALL foreign it's stuff that's also gonna take some effort to remember.  I also have History, which isn't usually bad, but with two hard classes everything feels like too much right now.

Since dropping anything isn't an option yet I feel like if I have to stay in until 60% of the semester is over I'd rather just get it over with and not have to backtrack any.  If I come out with two B's I'll still have my 3.5, but I was hoping to save B's for when things are REALLY harder.  I don't know.

I'm just really not happy at the moment.  I have like zero free time.  I can't do anything really fun like even paint my nails or make jewelry or hang with the animals.  I feel like I haven't ACTUALLY spent time with Shaun in over a year.  🙁  I do see Shadow because he's here all the time, but I've been leaning on him harder than usual for help around the house.

All I can say is that this school stuff had better be worth it one day.  I don't even know what I will do if this doesn't pay off.

Anyway.  I have to go do something productive now.  As usual.  🙁