I have regrets. 🙁

I have regrets.  🙁

I haven't seen Dad basically since this semester started last month.  We usually talk or text at least every Sunday if I can't make it out there, though.  Well since I haven't been out there it would follow that I didn't see the pups or kitten, either.  🙁  I mean, look.  Every time we would visit, Annie (one of the dogs) would scream her head off because she was so excited to see us.  LOL  Shadow would play with PP (the other dog) and the kitten.  It was just really nice and it was family.  And we haven't been there in a month and now they are gone and everything is different.  😢

So the house burns and the animals don't make it and I STILL don't go out there.  I keep calling and texting Dad, but every time I hear from him he seems dazed and distant and busy.  I'm sure he's got approximately a billionty things going on right now so I'm trying not to make myself into a problem, but I want to help.  Every time we communicate he tells me not to come down there because there is nothing I can do.  I feel like he's doing this in part to protect me.  I guess any parent probably would.  But I know if the situation were reversed he'd be here with me in a heartbeat.

I am planning to go out there this weekend no matter what he says.  I have some clothes and money from some of you awesome people that I need to take to them.  I know that many of you are still working on things for them and that's ok.  I'll take what I have this weekend and more the next trip.  Tests and studying be damned - I'll be heading to Munford on the weekends just as I was before.  Life is too short for all this "working too hard to see the important ones in your life" kind of crap.  Seriously.

Btw, in two days of asking what Dad needs I finally got ONE thing out of him:  Long Johns.  He's a little thin guy and he's a carpenter and works out in the cold so things that can keep him warm are appreciated.  ❤