I want to apologize for this not being the personal "Thank you" I intended...

I want to apologize for this not being the personal "Thank you" I intended to hand out to each of you, and that you all deserve.  I'm still struggling in a lot of ways, but I know y'all know that which is why you helped me.  Your kindness during this low point is deeply appreciated.  My words are failing me right now; I wanted to say something that would make you know how grateful I am that I have friends who care about me so much.  I wish I could do better right now, but the elephant on my chest has cracked the cup I pour from and I'm feeling pretty empty at the moment.  I don't really know what else to say, except that if there is ever anything I can do to pay you back or help you in any way, please don't hesitate to let me know.  Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.  💗💗💗