I'm getting married next week.

I'm getting married next week.  I am happy and excited to finally be able to "make it official" with the love of my life.  But my self esteem is taking a real hit with so many of the wonderful women I know pestering me about makeup.  It's really making me sad.

This whole thing is happening in the middle of the week.  We don't currently have the time, money, or energy to "make it fancy."  Not only that, but we're NOT fancy.  I spit in the face of tradition.  I do what I want.  I have a wedding dress, but by chance only; my dad found it while dumpster diving and gave it to me.  I will not be wearing it because that is not me.

Shaun is doing his thing and he's really pumped.  No one is giving him any input on what he "should" be doing.  But it seems like there is a ton coming my way (especially regarding my face), and I'm not a fan.  I don't know if it's a girl thing or what, but I haven't always dreamed of this day, I never had any real thoughts about how I'd like it to go, and I just want to enjoy it.  I care much more about the content of our day than how it looks.

I haven't worn makeup in YEARS.  I don't like it.  My skin hurts often and to be honest I usually straight up like my face.  But for the first time in ages I'm having anxiety about how it looks.  I don't like that and I don't want it, but now it's here and I don't know what to do with it.  So, thank you for that, society.

And to be clear:  This is NOT directed at anyone in particular.  I feel like everyone has come out of the woodwork to tell me I need to cover my face.