Aww. Chupa's dreaming.

Aww.  Chupa's dreaming.

Speaking of... why am I not asleep?  Time just got totally away from me.  😳

Another BIRTH CONTROL Post:

I just placed an order from www.barriermethods.com. I bought the Caya Diaphragm (one size fits most), the 75mm Omniflex Wide Seal Diaphragm, and a couple of gentle spermicides to try out. Yay! On the down side they gotta come all the way from Germany so that's a wait. I guess that's ok - my uterus is sad from getting all stirred up and stabbed the other day. I don't need to go and have it poked at right now. 😂

Dr. Daniels prescribed a 75mm diaphragm so that is what I based my purchase on. I'm hoping that he was accurate. I do remember that I couldn't feel the one he put in and it didn't just fall out so I think that's a good sign.

 
I'm really glad that I can purchase things like this even if I can't do it easily. I was pretty panicked that I wasn't able to get my prescription filled around here. Shaun called Planned Parenthood and they said that the manufacturer discontinued the diaphragms (the Internet confirmed that), so there aren't really any suppliers to the U.S. right now. That is rather unfortunate. I strongly feel that we need more options - especially options that don't contain hormones.

 
While I loved my first IUD dearly I know that a lot of women never have any good experiences with them. I know that there is the copper IUD which is what I initially wanted, but after 6 years with an IUD and complications removing them both times I kind of think I've had my fill. Another issue with those is that Shaun often got poked by the stiff little strings (to the point of leaving actual marks on him), and that was pretty much a mood-killer.

 
I can honestly say that if it was up to me to take a pill every day I'd be knocked up. I'm not so great at being consistent and I'm not very fond of taking pills so that narrows my options quite a bit from the jump. I tried the NuvaRing before the Mirena (even though it was hormonal and I wasn't happy about that), and it was ok, but eventually killed my sex drive. Not quite the way I want to control pregnancy. 😂 I don't like condoms and it gets expensive to get anything nice so that's not my first choice, either. It's not like we need disease protection from each other so I kind of feel like I JUST DON'T WANT THAT, anyway.

 
I just don't think it should BE SO DIFFICULT. Regardless of the fact that we don't want kids I'm not really into getting myself spayed, nor do I want to push Shaun towards a vasectomy. I don't know why. I guess because it's like making a choice today for what happens in that area for the rest of your life. I guess I don't like to commit to permanent shit when who really damn knows what the future holds and I don't see anything wrong with that.

 
Anyway. I guess I'm done fussing. Well - aside from the fact that I am SUPPOSED to get free / cheap birth control from the good old USofA, but I just went and spent $175 - yep, you read that right - out of my own damn pocket to get something safe and that wouldn't screw with my moods. If the Caya works out it's good for 2 years and the Omniflex is good for... I don't know? Forever, maybe? It's made of silicon. I'll be sure to read the instructions that come with it so I know for sure. I guess that as long as one works out it wasn't a total waste. But free would have OBVIOUSLY been better.

Apparently barrier methods of birth control are not popular in the U.S. anymore...

Meh.  Apparently barrier methods of birth control are not popular in the U.S. anymore and are REALLY hard to get.  I might order some products from another country.  They deserve my money if they are gonna be that forward-thinking.  This shit is REDONK.  Not every person with a womb feels like being pumped full of chemicals all the time.  And where's the man birth control, for that matter?  Something besides lousy ass condoms and permanent methods?  There should really be a middle ground.

Internet, help me.

Internet, help me. I can't find anywhere to fill my diaphragm prescription. 🙁 I will do some Googling when I get home, but I am hoping that some of my friends will have some info for me.

My mood isn't horrible today.

My mood isn't horrible today.  I am not opposed to going to work or doing things, though I am not super motivated.  My guts are a little sore - worse than yesterday.  I'm still tired, too, but I think I'll give "having a regular day" a shot.  I didn't have a single one of those last week.  😕

Nappy has a bath appointment at Piper's today at 10.  Guess I'd better get moving.

P. S.

Got fitted for a diaphragm. That was interesting. Dr. Daniels put one in, asked if it was comfy, then told me to get it out and put it in the sink. I guess it was a test.  He left the room, but Shaun was with me. I thought "Well, this is pretty undignified" so I asked Shaun to look away. He did, but I should have also asked him to cover his ears. 😂😂😂 It made a sound! A gross one. Haha.

Anyway, Dr. Daniels isn't into the copper IUD's - something about them causing abortion and his conscience. I can understand if he's uncomfortable and I'm not gonna push the issue. I do plan to look more into those and maybe see if I can find someone who does them. I think a diaphragm will be ok temporarily, but not for long term. I'm not entirely sure I'm comfortable with it's success rate.

Stabby stab stab, diggy dig dig, IUD is out.

Now I can make a pair of earrings.

Breathing a sigh of relief and patiently awaiting the return of my period. Doctor Daniels said to be prepared - it could happen anytime in the next 3 months. Ah, the suspense. 😂