Gotta love it when...

Gotta love it when school starts tomorrow and Blackboard hasn't even updated to reflect your new classes.  😕

Last semester it wasn't updated until late late late - (had to be after midnight because that's the last time I checked it), but the teacher posted an announcement at some point that the first class wouldn't meet, but no one in the whole class checked Blackboard first thing in the morning (who does that?!) and showed up anyway.

Note to self:  Check Blackboard in the morning.

I really love that Blackboard is a thing now, but dang... update it a day or two before the new semester starts PLEASE.

In other news:  Today I felt ok.  Woke up a little swimmy-brained, didn't last long, and I wasn't even a dead lump.  Progress!  🙂

Y'all wish me luck tomorrow.  First days are usually pretty chill, but I'm trying my best not to anxiety myself to death over Calculus.  This is the one I've been waiting for.  It will probably determine if Computer Science is actually attainable for me.  😳

I took half a Celexa last night and today was much better.

I took half a Celexa last night and today was much better.  I was barely nauseated, less swimmy-headed, and oh - I FINALLY slept!  (Though I am sure that part had something to do with the Melatonin gummy I ate).

I never heard from the doctor, but I'm planning to stay on 10mg unless I need to take the full dose he prescribed.  My motivation isn't back to 100%, but I do feel less dead and less down than I have, which is REALLY nice.  I can do things, but I'm taking it easy this weekend because school starts Monday, so I'll be running my ass off then.  I probably won't have another weekend of downtime anytime soon.  😕

Over the last couple of days I've been having bursts of energy, but with the way my head feels I've been afraid to act on them.  It feels really pressurized and like if I get my blood pumping I'll get a migraine, so that's no good.  But if my head gets right soon I will start doing more exercise than just walking.  I gotta do something because I hate feeling antsy, but it's not like it wouldn't be good for me anyway.

And on that note I'm heading to bed.  I took my medicine like a good girl and also ate another gummy.  It's super early for me to be going to sleep on a weekend, but I've been waking up early and I'd like to stick to that schedule if I can.  I might even set an alarm for in the morning.  ON A SUNDAY, Y'ALL.  I think I've probably never done that in my life.  LOL

Goodnight, friends, and thank you ❤ to everyone who has checked on me and helped me through this medication ordeal.  It may not be over, but it's such a relief to know that I'm not alone.  I appreciate all of you!

Today was not fun AT ALL.

Today was not fun AT ALL.  My head is so loopy that I'm a little scared to drive.  I feel dizzy if I turn my head too fast.  I've got a weird headache (I've had it since yesterday, but it wasn't so bad).  I only slept 2 hours last night, then 2 more, and then I was awake for the day.  Oh, and don't forget the nausea.  Overall, I'm feeling really not good about this medicine.  🙁

If I had time to sit around and adjust it would be one thing, but classes start back Monday, and while I might survive Health and Psychology on little sleep and with a loopy brain I feel like I need to be on top of my game for Calculus.  I ordered my book today, btw, so that's exciting.  Also a little scary.  Shit's getting real now.  😳

I called the doctor and left a message, but never heard back.  He told me before I left my appointment that I shouldn't be feeling anything major, but I definitely am.  I think I have some sort of sensitivity to medications since I rarely take anything, but when I do I usually end up feeling like this.  I think I'm going to take half a pill tonight and see how that goes.  If I still can't rest I'm probably giving up, or either I'll cut it up into quarters and see how that goes.  All I know is that I feel worse than I did before.  I can handle nausea and headaches (got really used to that on methotrexate), but this loopy business and no-sleep mess has got to GO.

I went to bed around 11, woke up at 1, then again at 4.

I went to bed around 11, woke up at 1, then again at 4.  That's really not cool.  I start school Monday.  I can't be a sleep-deprived zombie.  🙁

Update on myself:

Update on myself:

Today wasn't as hard. I know the meds haven't had time to fix anything, but I'm thankful for any little break I get.

The fog hasn't lifted, but I feel it stirring. I made it to work a little earlier today than I managed to leave the house yesterday. My head has felt weird all day (I'm not a fan of it, but hopefully it won't last). I have also felt really tired. I just took my pill with dinner, so maybe I won't feel sick again. 

Anyway. Maybe things will be going a little better in a few days. I hope so. Until then I'm hanging in there. Thank you to everyone who has checked on me. ❤️

Ok, y'all. So those pretty little abalone foils...

Ok, y'all.  So those pretty little abalone foils were all completely popped off by yesterday afternoon.  I could tell when I was posting the photo of them that they wouldn't be on for very much longer.  😛  But that's ok.  I'd just gotten this Chalkboard Manicure Kit from Ciate in recently, so I thought I'd try it out.

Full Disclosure:  This came out like, 3 years ago.  It was an un-used kit, but definitely NOT new.  LOL  I am too poor to be paying $30 for anything non-essential, so when I found this on sale super cheap I snapped it up.

Anyway.  The kit comes with a matte black polish, a clear matte topcoat, and 4 "chalk pens."  The idea is that you paint the matte black down, draw on it with the pens, and the seal it with the matte topcoat.  Sounded simple enough, so I figured I'd try it out.

Well, the matte black kept drying almost like a crackle - you could see my naked nail through the cracks.  So it took about 3 thick coats to get all of my nails fully covered.  You can probably see that on my thumb, the polish itself cracked after it dried.  Blegh. I'm not sure if it's a matte thing (since I don't wear them often) or maybe that the polish is older, but I wasn't feeling super impressed at that point.

Then I got out the chalk pens and they were pretty runny.  You can see the thin spots in the drawings.  Not only that - the tips were huge and blunt.  Not really great for drawing on a tiny surface in my honest opinion, but if they were thinner it might have not looked very "chalky" so I'm sure it was intentional.

I was tired last night and didn't get too creative.  When I was looking up the date of when the kit came out just now I found maybe 2 or 3 manicures done with it that I actually liked.  Overall, I think it's a neat idea and I'm sure that the "imperfect, kind of messy" look is what's so great about these, but it's really not my thing.  The polish seems brittle and is already chipping, so these are probably about to come off.

Anyone out there digging it, or is this a total nail fail?  (You can be honest.  My feelers won't be hurt!)

I took my first pill 2 hours ago.

I took my first pill 2 hours ago. I'm nauseated and feeling anxious. My chest is pretty tight. Gonna try to get some sleep, but we'll see how that goes.

Maybe next time I'll try to go straight to bed after I take it.