Next Tuesday is a big day...

Next Tuesday is a big day - Awards Day at GSCC!  I've been nominated again for the Outstanding Achievement Award (I was nominated last year, as well, but didn't win it.  The guy who did totally deserved it, though).  I am also being honored by Who's Who Among College Students, and SSS has nominated me for something, too.  Maybe I will win something, but even if not it's really a nice feeling to be in the running.  Since I technically haven't gone full-time I've never been able to make President's or Dean's list despite my good grades so at least someone notices me.  😝

Wednesday is my induction to Phi Theta Kappa so that's also exciting.

I really don't know how much any of this stuff matters, but I'm going to enjoy the process.  I can honestly say that I've stayed in school and worked hard even when it felt like everything was falling apart around me.  There have been so many times where I thought "This is too much" or "I'm too old for this shit" or "Everything sucks and I need a break," but here I am - a little over two weeks away from graduation.  I am excited!

Too bad my degree will be basically useless without two more years of education, but it symbolizes all the progress I've made and no one can take that from me.  To me it will represent the half-way mark.  It will serve as proof that I can do a thing.  😁😁😁🤣  Go me!  DO ALL THE THINGS!  😜

Bombed my Physics test...

Bombed my Physics test, but I'm still poised to come out of there with a B.  THANK GOODNESS.

Did better on the retakes of the Calculus tests.  I have a 90 now instead of a low B.  On the new cal test I made a 77 which was a bummer because I felt pretty good about it, but that's not the end of the world.  An A is not impossible at this point - I've just gotta stay on top of my game for the rest of this week - plus 2 more.  I think I can!  🙂  But even if not I would accept a B.  These classes are hard!

So curious. 😂😂😂

So curious. 😂😂😂

I got the lawnmower cranked all by my little self!

I got the lawnmower cranked all by my little self!  It should probably be embarrassing how much of an accomplishment that is, but legit - the first crank of the season is no joke.  😄

The kiddo is cutting some grass now and I'm cleaning.  I honestly forgot what having energy to do things felt like.  😞  This is much better! 😁

I opened my email to a message saying...

I opened my email to a message saying "Award Notification" and I swear my heart stopped.  🤣🤣🤣  It was a scholarship notification from JSU.

Unfortunately, it wasn't for the Presidential Scholarship which is THE BIG ONE that I've been trying for (they said I should know something on that one by the end of the month), but that's ok.  I can be patient.

I did get the The Billy S. Lindsey Scholarship which is a small one, but every little bit helps and I am not complaining!

It keeps getting more and more real that I am going to actually go to school there.  Y'all don't even know.  This legit always seemed too big and too far out of reach for me.  💓💓💓

I'm officially registered for a class at JSU!

I'm officially registered for a class at JSU!  Probability and Stats.  😳  I can't register for the other 3 until I finish this semester at GSCC.  Hopefully, they will all still be available!

I was planning to major in Math, but...

I was planning to major in Math, but then I think I flipped back over to CS.  I guess I don't know what I'm doing with my life.

I didn't want to do the teaching math so I got the sheet that gives you the options of "General," "Theoretical," and "Applied."  I think that Theoretical would NOT be my jam so I was planning to go the applied route.  But if applied math is anything like Physics I don't think I can endure that for the next couple of years.  🙁

On the CS side I wouldn't even need the second Physics, so...  I mean I don't even need Cal III for it, either, but I'm definitely taking it over the summer because it sounds fun and if I'm a math minor (JSU is changing so that CS majors don't even have to declare a minor, but I want to), then having the last Calculus would probably help.

If I take the easiest path I'll do CS to avoid Physics II.  But I don't want to be crapping out.  Is it crappy to avoid a hard class?  Can anyone think of a reason I should push through the 2nd Physics (aside from the fact that I could flop back over to math?)