I don't know what happened last night...

I don't know what happened last night, but I slept like shit.

My greenhouse was delivered today. I didn't even have the energy to be excited. I struggled just to get through work.

I also don't know what happened to Scar, but he's been favoring his back left leg since yesterday evening. I hope it's just a sprain. We already have 3 vet appointments this week.

I'm having x-rays done in the morning before work. My doctor ordered them when I saw him, but last week was hard and I didn't get to go.

Cubba is hanging in there. He's turning all crusty, but that puncture is still drippy and gross. He finished his antibiotics over the weekend. We're keeping a close eye on things in case he needs more. His stitches should be coming out on Friday.

Bear is so sad he can't play with Cub. We're doing our best to keep him occupied, but it's not easy.

Goodnight, friends. ❤️

My sleep has been much better...

My sleep has been much better since the day after I started HRT. I spent the weekend mostly resting, but we did go to a few plant nurseries on Saturday and Lowe's today.

Other than that, we've rested as much as we could. It wasn't SUPER relaxing because keeping the dogs separated is hard. Cub and Bear both want to play, but Cub needs to rest and not reopen any of his wounds.

Hopefully, we'll only have one more week of stitches and cone-wearing. I really, really hope that Cub can return to a normal routine after his vet appointment on Friday. I feel like we haven't had much down-time since Bear's surgery, and we could use a break.

Getting some supervised cone-free time.

Getting some supervised cone-free time. He is so, so handsome and extra, super sweet. We love this guy. ❤️

We really thought we were just about done toting this dog around...

We really thought we were just about done toting this dog around after his surgery, but sometimes this is the easiest way to keep him off of Cub.

Shaun dropped Cubba off at the vet earlier because one of his wounds looked pretty gnarly to us. The vet said it was ok, though. Thank goodness.

Shaun said Cub was happy to be at the vet and trotted in with his tail wagging. He went off with the tech with no hesitation. He's never met a stranger and I love that about him. I'm glad he's still friendly despite what he went through. He's the sweetest. ❤️

One of Cubba's wounds isn't looking great...

Pics of the backyard.

Pics of the backyard. It's not 100% completely done, but it's getting there.

Shaun wants a few more rocks, we need to put our plants in the ground, we have to decide on a bridge, we might want a few more decorative items, and the greenhouse won't arrive until Monday, but the major stuff is done AND I AM GRATEFUL.

Peep the new gates. We had to have taller gates that automatically lock per the city code because of the pool. We have a neighbor who does iron work so we got some custom-made. I'll describe them under the captions, too.

Also, HUGE, MAJOR shout out to my beautiful, wonderful, creative husband for designing the yard and the gates. He drew everything up for me on his tablet so I could see his ideas. I'm not a great visualizer, unfortunately. But we are both so pleased with how everything turned out.

I'm putting captions under the photos because everything is easier to explain that way.

This is the main space in the yard. I can skate, I can swim, I can play on the grass with the dogs. I. Am. Happy.

This is the side of the house where my plants are. The black square is where the greenhouse is gonna be. The area to the left of the green brush will have a bridge (over the big rocks). The house came with a bridge, but it's falling apart. We liked the idea so we're going to replace it. We just need to find one that Bear can't easily get hurt on.

I don't know if it's easy to tell, but that decorative stone heading into the back corner is actually drainage away from the house. It was already there with the bridge, so we chose more river rock to outline the pool/give it a more natural-appearing shape and tie it all together.

This is my succulent kennel which is blocking up the patio. I can't wait to get this area more cleaned up.

This is our passenger gate. We wanted the Tree of Life to represent us since that was our wedding design. The New Mexican spin on that is that it's windy as fuck here, and we love it. Also, the roadrunner makes my day.

This is the ugly pool equipment and the metal building we built. We are thinking about putting a shower under the pergola so we can quickly rinse off after swimming. We might enclose one side to hide all of this. I don't know yet.

Between these 2 trees, Shaun would like a Japanese Maple. This is an area that was full of weeds. It's cleaned up now and pretty much a blank canvas. We don't know what we're going to do with it yet.

This is our larger gate. It has a Yucca/Agave plant, hot air balloons up top, and a quail family along the bottom. My only regret here is that we didn't put the quail going in one direction rather than coming towards the middle, but that's ok. If you know about quail families, you know the parents lead a whole-ass train of babies. Missed opportunity. I didn't think of this until it was too late, but I like the symbolism of coming together, too.

Also probably gonna put my swing set over here.

My not-fully-planted succulent garden. I love looking at this and can't wait until it fills in a bit. There's yucca, agave, prickly pear, cholla, and a barrel cactus. I think I'm gonna get some of the clumping beauties for behind that wooden bench. I am so excited!

I'm literally crying.

I'm literally crying. I just had my video appointment with Midi Health and SHE LISTENED TO ME about the hormonal symptoms I've been having since 2022.

I start HRT today. Hopefully I can sleep again. I would love to get rid of this brain fog. Maybe my bones will heal. She's sending in a referral for a DEXA scan to see where I am. I was diagnosed with Osteopenia in 2015 when I was having trouble walking due to Psoriatic Arthritis. HRT should help protect my bones. I kind of need those.

I tried to get treated in 2022 when I was in Cincinnati. She tested my blood and said since my periods were regular that I am fine. Both of those "tests" are outdated and inaccurate.

Midi is making a difference for us by taking the symptom-based diagnostic approach. WE ARE HALF OF THE POPULATION. WE MATTER. Life isn't over at 40. Or 50. Or 60. It's over when you die. Live your best life until that day comes.