I just watched a movie.

I just watched a movie.  I'm starting to think I should just give up on that completely.  I almost never like them.

[I think I just don't like anyone else's thoughts and ideas in my head. I pretty much feel like it's an unwelcome intrusion most of the time. And I'm so picky - if I watch something I don't want it to make me sad or be anything but uplifting and / or funny. I don't need any extra darkness in my life. I don't want monsters, or rapes, or people shooting up, or getting killed, or tortured. I don't like any of that!

We watched Suckerpunch and I think it was not a bad movie. It wasn't extremely disturbing to me, but it made me sick what was happening to the girls. I guess I like fantasy movies more because I don't stop and think, "I bet that's happened / happening in real life. I bet people have actually suffered / are fucked up like this." That does not make me happy. It takes me to a dark place in my mind; the place next door to where I KNOW there are animals being hurt and suffering out there somewhere every minute, but there's nothing I can do about it. Those places will keep me awake at night if I let them so I try to stay away. I don't need any movies taking me there - or even close to there. I feel like no one gets that. I think most people don't equate the fucked up shit they watch with a story that has probably actually happened. But I do.]