I spent 12 hours doing math homework yesterday.

I spent 12 hours doing math homework yesterday.  I've done a ton of organizing and reading for my 10-page paper that I have to have a draft ready for on Thursday.  I'm about to finish the math I started yesterday and call it a night.  I am so tired.

I keep having dreams about getting my degrees.  I'm so scared of failing and / or taking longer in school because my family is depending on me and getting a job would change so much for us.  I'm so close and yet at times when I'm struggling with my work and my grades, it feels so far away.  But May is only 8 months away, so that really isn't long.

I was talking to Shaun today and he said that my growth has been amazing.  I feel it.  No matter what happens I know that college has changed me for the better.  My Math professor said that if you can do math, you can do anything and I feel that, too.  I feel like understanding math opens up everything.  I see it everywhere.  It's so beautiful.

Regardless of what happens I am so grateful that I've been able to go on this college journey.  It would not have been possible without Shaun and without friends and family supporting me.  I just hope I don't let myself and everyone else down.  I don't think I'll believe I can do this until I've graduated and done it.

Anyway.  Goodnight, friends.  I hope you all are doing well.  ❤