Yesterday I got out of my head and off Facebook for a bit.

Yesterday I got out of my head and off Facebook for a bit.  Shaun and I took Cubba and Rose to the dog park.  They were SO EXCITED.  For the first time ever Rose jumped into the car by herself after Cubba got in; she's probably 70 lbs now so it was nice for Shaun to not have to pick her up.  When it was time to leave she even jumped into the car FIRST.  Considering that we never spent much time with her I'm proud that she figured that out.

It was nice to be around dogs again.  They were never meant to be mine and I don't have much of a relationship with them.  It's sad, but my devotion was to my aging pack and I have no regrets about that.  My pack accepted and put up with and trained foster after foster.  They deserved some peace and quiet and my full attention during their golden years.  Cubba and Rose are good dogs, but I'm not ready to bond like that again.  I am finally up for spending more time with them, though.

In other news:  I don't know if you younger bleeders know this, but your PMS can change over the years.  I used to be a backache / cry kind of dude, but now I'm a "period flu" (which is exactly what it sounds like) / cramp kind of guy.  I didn't enjoy the back pain or the emotional rollercoaster from before, but I super am not into feeling like I'm getting actually sick.  I've had a headache for two days.  I napped the day before yesterday and had chills and woke up like I'd sweated out a fever.  I woke up nauseated today.  I'm not digging this, either.  So I guess what I'm saying is that PMS sucks and it can change and that will likely also suck.  In case you didn't know.  😂😂😂😭😭😭

And finally - I don't know if I feel emotionally down due to hormones or because of, you know, 2020, or if there is something else going on, but I feel kind of... lonely?  I don't know.  It is likely because I haven't seen anyone in months and that's probably just getting to me.  I know I have friends and people that care about me, but I'm feeling pretty disconnected from everyone and everything lately (aside from Shaun, the kids, and Scar, obviously).  It's probably a combination of everything.  And the fact that due to the pandemic, I am literally disconnected from the world all but online.  These are strange times to be living in.

Well, I'm off to cuddle my boyfriend.  He didn't meow me awake for nothing.  😂😂😂  Be well and love one another.  Black lives matter.  ❤