I've been EXTREMELY low-energy all day.

I've been EXTREMELY low-energy all day.  I would almost say that I'm feeling a little depressed.

I got woken up early to help with a chore.  All four of us went to do it and that wasn't even necessary so I (theoretically) COULD HAVE gotten my rest.  After we were done we got breakfast on the way home.  Then I watched the other half of a movie that me, Shaun, and the kids started watching last night.  I wasn't into it and by the time it was over I was headed to my nest for quiet time.  I napped and then talked to Janet.  I wish both of us felt better, but regardless it was good to hear from her.

After I finally stopped hiding me and Shaun watched something on TV and then went to get some yummy food.  That perked me up a little.  Sometimes I just need to sit and look at his face.  We got home and I painted his fingernails while we finished watching a series, and then I shaped my claws.  I was trying out the oval shape, but it's just not for me.  I am aware that not everyone thinks short stilettos are cute, but I like them and even Shaun said they looked better.  Sadly, that is all I've had the energy to accomplish today.

I just realized that I might be feeling down because I looked at my memories on here yesterday and it was the anniversary of Booka's death.  The end of an era for me.  The last of my pack to pass away.  It was hard to read my post and not have feelings about it.  I am probably still sad.  ... Yeah.

Unfortunately for me, taking ownership of my content by checking memories every day this year and copying them has me re-living the best of times as well as the worst.  Some days it is very hard.  That was probably the case last night, but I was too exhausted and too distracted by the movie to realize that I probably needed to process that and have a little cry before falling asleep.  It is really crazy and amazing how the body responds to mental and emotional stress.

I guess I'm probably off to go (possibly) traumatize myself some more.  At least I'm going in bracing myself today.  Wish me luck or good vibes or something.  ❤