I don't know what this pattern is supposed to be, really..

I don't know what this pattern is supposed to be, really... but in green, it made me think of something like moss. I was really at a loss as to what else this paint job needed and then I saw one of my fairies blowing a dandelion tuft and thought "This will be good." I like it. I like nature and fairies. 🙂

I am about to...

I am about to watch some TV with Shadow, and do my nails, and try to get un-mad.  It does no good to be mad at shit I can't change.

Unfortunately, "mad" is like, my default emotion when I'm not ok.  I'm really good at being mad.  😐

If I could pick up a car and throw it right now, I would.

If I could pick up a car and throw it right now, I would.

So my Hyundai won't stay cranked now.  😳

Shaun had to jump me just so I could drive to work.  It cranked when I tried to leave, but I turned the lights on and it died.  I'm sure that it's just the battery / alternator, AGAIN, but I am so beyond tired of being stranded and pouring money into something that is just gonna break again in a few months.  Therefore, I am getting rid of it.  If the Kia is gonna be a dick, I'll get rid of it, too.  I am just so done with all of this.  I will learn the hard way to ride my bike where ever I need to go and I can ride with Shaun to work when I need to.

My biggest issue is taking my animals places.  Shaun isn't a fan of having animals loose in his car.  Nappy has a hair appointment at Piper's tomorrow, but I'm gonna have to cancel.  I don't have a crate large enough to put her in.  And we'd have to pick her up to get her in the car, anyway, and that is hard because she's so huge.  That is the one great thing about the Hyundai.  It was low enough that it wasn't hard getting the dogs in and out.

Anyway, I'm pissed and annoyed and ready for a serious change.  I would just go out and buy another car, but I'm not made of money.  If I have $10 in my pocket after paying my bills every week that's a damn good week for me.  I will get tax money early next year, but I am not living through another year of my house and yard flooding so it's pretty much already spent.  The year after that Shadow is getting a car, and the year after that I am putting better windows in my house.  So my extra money is spoken for for the next few years.  LIFE SHOULD NOT BE THIS FUCKING HARD!

Sorry for the rant and the angriness - I've been holding it together for the last few weeks, but it gets hard - especially when my freedom is at stake.

Feeling ok on this Monday.

Feeling ok on this Monday.  I'm up and not mad about it, so that's something.  LOL

Here's hoping that my Hyundai feels ok.  I drove the Kia to Munford yesterday and almost didn't make it.  I think my brakes must have been locked up because I couldn't even kick it into neutral and coast down a hill.  It was a struggle just to drive it.  When I made it to my dad's house he could feel a lot of heat coming off my front tires, so right now we're thinking brakes.  He said he would take a look at it, so I just left it with him and bummed a ride home from my mom.

I wish Anniston would just finish the damn bike trail.  Or put in some bike lanes.  I'd totally start biking to work just to avoid having to deal with cars so much.  I am pretty scared to ride a bike on the real road even though I see people do that all the time.

Lately when I am stressed or feel bad I have the urge to clean.

Lately when I am stressed or feel bad I have the urge to clean.

I am just not gonna fight it.  Time to scrub my bathroom real quick.

Purples.

Purples.

Triangles.

Glitter.

😃

I had a really nice day yesterday.

I had a really nice day yesterday.  Just me and Shaun.  Nice and relaxed.

I think I slept too much today, though.  I have a headache like "whoa."  I think I'm gonna order some takeout House of Chen and one of those FABULOUS teas.  Unless anyone is up for meeting up for lunch?