Just made this payment to my mortgage company...

Just made this payment to my mortgage company. I didn't know I could pay that far into the past. I shall never pay a late fee again. Bluebird is awesome. 😛

It's a lovely day...

It's a lovely day, but my thoughts are exactly the opposite. I probably should not be left alone with them. There is a rage burning inside me. A delicious, beautiful rage. I am feeling a great need to express it, but not yet. That's ok - my time will come. I feel strangely calm and patient. And quite powerful. I am not alone. I never have been. I couldn't be if I wanted to. They are with me, always.

I had a much-needed day of relaxing. 😃

I had a much-needed day of relaxing.  😃

I spent a lot of the day on my ass watching Netflix.  Cheer's, of course.  While I was doing that I let Chupa and Emma play until I finally had to crate Chupa because she's just into ALL THE THINGS.  The last straw was when she jumped on my nail table, knocked down my nail repair glue without me noticing, and then chewed it until she came to me making a face that clearly said "I have something bad in my mouth".  She had punctured it, but just barely.  I've watched her all day and she's fine, but my nail glue is ruined.  I guess it's lucky for me that I have nubs right now.

After that me and Shaun went to Ft. McClellan to ride bikes.  We went more places than usual.  The weather was nice and my bike seat is positioned ALMOST perfectly.  I rode mostly in comfort.  😂

On Shaun's suggestion we went to the pet cemetery there.  I thought it was probably a bad idea because it would make me sad and I was right.  But it also made me happy to see such beautiful memorials to pets.  I figured it was just going to be a small, run-down kind of deal, but it was really nice with actual grave stones and looked like someone goes and tends it once in a while.  There is a memorial there dated as recently as this past November, (though most of the rest of them are much older), so I guess it's still active.

On the way home we saw some deer.  Like, a whole fucking flock of them.  It was pretty cool although probably sad.  Some fuckers think it's a great idea to mow down the trees at McClellan so the deer probably had nowhere else to be.  😕

Anyway, I hope that tomorrow is as nice.  I am planning to see my dad, and Shaun said he'd be up for walking Emma and Teyla tomorrow, so yay for that.  🙂

At the entrance of the Pet Cemetery on McClellan.

A shot of the Pet Cemetary on McClellan. It bends off to the right wayyy at the back. There is a stream off to the left that is nice. Shaun said he'd like to come back and move the rest of that limb. He got what he could today.

The flock of deer. This is pretty close to the Lowe's in Anniston. This is, sadly, what's left of the trees.

Emma just gave me her bone.

Emma just gave me her bone. I was the only one in the room without one.

She is so special. ❤

Data is on Cheers!

Data is on Cheers!

I didn't really sleep last night.

I didn't really sleep last night.  I am distraught.  Apparently, I was distracted, also.  I went to bed with a door not only unlocked, but OPEN.  Thank goodness Emma is the best dog ever because she could have left and not looked back.  😕

I left Lowrider in a crate all night when she was only in there to keep her out of my way momentarily.  She was SO THIRSTY when I let her out this morning.  Made me feel even more like shit.  🙁

Now that I'm home I've had a good cry and I feel like passing out.

That's dumb.  Shadow's gone and I could be spending quality time with my Shaun.  Or doing my nails.  Or something.

I went to Sally's today on my lunch break.  And guess what?  I didn't even care.  I didn't buy a single polish.

There are some things wrong and they are really getting to me.  I don't get why people don't care and show no interest in doing better.  I'm sorry, y'all, but that is all I can say about it right now.  All in due time, I suppose.

Send me good vibes and will me the strength to handle a situation that is SO MUCH BIGGER THAN ME.  I would appreciate it.  ❤

I thought it would be a good idea...

I thought it would be a good idea for Chupa to play with another doggie so I introduced her to Emma. They got along just fine. Here is a photo of them taking a break. 😛