Today was kind of bad.

Today was kind of bad.  I feel so whiny and I apologize for that, but dang.

Sitting in class for 2 hours in a hard chair where my feet dangle is bad.  It hurts my knees and lower back.  I might seriously have to start carrying around a box or something to put my feet on.

Between that, lower back PMS pain, and my hips and knees not feeling any better yet (come on, Prednisone!), I was in tears by the time I got back home.  I took some Ibuprofen and fell asleep on the couch with Shadow.  I got to work around 4 (YIKES!), but it could not be helped today.

Dang ol' life is kicking my ass.  I feel like every day is a struggle lately and I'm honestly kind of afraid to hear how my x-rays turned out.

Well, who has time to mope when you have hours of homework to do?  Not this girl.  No long-moping for me.  Later, friends.  ❤

Ok. I've been home from the doctor for a while.

Ok.  I've been home from the doctor for a while.  Wasting time that I desperately did not need to waste.  But I feel tired, so.

Anyway.  Saw Dr. Crawford.  I got there 30 minutes late (I called before getting there in case she UNDERSTANDABLY did not want to see me).  I got lost in doing homework and had no clue what time it was.  Thankfully she said to come anyway.

She asked a lot of questions, felt my joints, and sent me for x-rays.  She's putting me on the injectable form of methotrexate... meaning that I'm going to have to give myself a weekly shot.  I feel faint just thinking about it, but I'll survive.  I'm also now on Prednisone for a few months to get my symptoms in check.  And of course folic acid to keep all of this shit from making my hair fall out.  Woo.

So... I start my shot on Friday.  And speaking of shots:  I'm supposed to give Nappy her arthritis shot today.  I feel all jeebly just thinking about it.  Blegh.  I'm not a fan of stabbing us.  😂

Anyway.  Homework calls.  Later, FB.

Jeebus.

Jeebus.  I have 85 notifications, but I don't have time to check them.  Hit the ground running today.  Everyone's fed and now I have to do some errands so I can come home and do more homework.  Finished up a section yesterday, but still have 3 to go.  😳

I got a new pencil at Wal-Mart last night.  It's gray - one of my favorite colors.  Could have only been better if it had been brown.  Fat chance I'll ever see one like that, but it's ok.  It writes really nice and it doesn't hurt my finger.  Woo!

FYI - if anyone needs me in an urgent kind of way - send me a message.  I don't have the Facebook app installed on my phone.  It makes it slow and it's a big distraction.  So I only have Messenger on there.

Anyway, I'm off to do things.  I will sit down and respond to everyone later today... I'm almost sure of it.  I will have to take a break from homework so that my brain doesn't explode.  ❤❤❤

I was pretty much crashed out...

I was pretty much crashed out... until I scared myself awake.

I'd been on the couch for hours watching TV.  I watched a movie with Shaun and Shadow, and then when Shaun left me and the kid watched the new episode of Wayward Pines.  I don't usually do creepy shows, but I can deal with it.

After that went off I decided it was time for bed so I stood up and started walking towards my room.  As I was walking I felt something go down my leg.  Not wet - I didn't pee myself or suddenly start my period.  It was dry and warm and bulky.  😳

NEEDLESS TO SAY - I freaked the shit out.

I started kicking my leg to shake whatever it was out of my pant leg while screaming because clearly that helps in these situations.  😂😂😂  I dropped everything I was carrying because waving your arms around when there is something unknown in your pants also helps, just FYI.  Shadow backed up and the dogs were looking like "What the hell?!"  I was just about to take off my pants when it finally came out.

What was it, you ask?  Oh, it's good.  I feel like a total dumbass over this one.  😂😂😂  It was a tissue that I'd wadded up and stuck in my waistband because my sweats don't have pockets.  Seriously.  All THAT over a tissue that fell down my pant leg.  😂😂😂

On the bright side me and Shadow had a good laugh, which I think I desperately needed.  I laughed until I couldn't breathe and I'm still giggling about it when it crosses my mind.  Now I'm about to get in my bed and hope that I can simmer back down enough to fall asleep.  It's been an exhausting week so hopefully it won't take long.  Goodnight, Internet!  Or rather, good morning! 😛

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Please, no one tag me.

Please, no one tag me in horrible things right now - especially if it is animal-related.  I am not ok right now.  I'm stressed, I'm tired, I'm in pain, and it's all I can do to not let myself slip into a very dark place.

I know that you all mean well, but even if it's for the sake of signing a petition I just can't look at bad / sad stuff.  I can't, and I'm sorry.  Feel free to tag me in all the happy shit you want to, though.  But no sob stories.  They make you too sad first and I can't deal.

Maybe I'll try to see FB again this weekend, but I have an ass-ton of homework to do - not to mention house repairs and the fact that I should do a show because I need money.  I miss all of my friend people.  

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I read my literature.

Ok.  I read my literature.  I don't think I'll be able to do any Algebra tonight.  My brain is tired.  My body is tired.  No good will come from forcing it.  Next class is Wednesday morning so I'll do it tomorrow sometime.

Booka is sleeping.  Has been for a while.  I know that today was hard on him, but I also know that he usually wakes up to scratch.  Maybe he's starting to feel a bit better already.  I hope so!