Ok, well, it's 5:30 and no Biology test grade yet. 🙁

Ok, well, it's 5:30 and no Biology test grade yet.  🙁  I'm sitting here having anxiety like I can't even tell you... And no - I wasn't able to stop myself from checking Blackboard constantly.  🙁  I did manage to go over Trig enough that I also feel ok-ish on that, but we'll see.

I am giving myself a headache with all this stressing out I'm doing.  I think it's time to take some Excedrin and get ready for class.  😕

Later, friends.

For better or worse...

Ok.  For better or worse the Biology test is behind me.  It is done.  I feel like I don't even want to say this because the last time I said this, I failed... but:  I feel ok about that test, so...  ¯\(°_o)/¯

Now I'm back home.  The animals are fed and the house is quiet.  Well - aside from Storm occasionally trying to flip a Kuranda dog bed.  😂😂😂  I'm in a good head space to practice Trig (as long as I can keep myself from obsessively checking Blackboard for my grade), so off I go.

Later, peeps.  ❤

Oh my gosh.

Oh my gosh.  Shadow just came in my room while I was studying for the Trig test that's coming up tomorrow and saw this Unit Circle and chart up on my screen. He asked me what kind of Math I was doing.  I was like, "This is Trig."  He goes "I just need to give you a hug for that."

He's so good.  It's nice to feel appreciated because my whole damn life hurts this semester.  It has been grueling and so hard.  This - paired with Biology - is killer.  I am also in History, as well as still working at SCM and tutoring math for GSCC.

If I can just survive tomorrow (Biology AND Trig test, all in one day), I will be ok.  😳

I just need to say that my Trig homework is getting so complicated...

I just need to say that my Trig homework is getting so complicated that I really deserve some cake or something for doing it.  Like, legit, someone bring me dessert.

I was almost frustrated to tears on Monday because my teacher just wasn't explaining things clearly and I had no clue what was going on when I left class.

But right now - just now - I found the tangent of the sine inverse of 3/5.  My book helped me figure it out and I did it and I want a reward.  The answer is 3/4 if anyone cares.

If this is how Trig goes, I'mma gain 300 pounds when I get to Calculus in the Fall.  Just giving y'all a heads-up for when you see me rolling around like a ball everywhere I go.  Don't be alarmed.  Oh my gosh.  😳

They both have pig noses on them?

They both have pig noses on them?  The pigs do?  You don't say.  😂😂😂

Laurel, Emily, Janet - this would be a perfect day.  😃

Today didn't start out well.

Today didn't start out well.  But I feel ok at the moment so I'm about to hit the books.

I usually have no trouble sleeping, but for the last few days - I can't.  I'm exhausted, but I can't.  Around 3 this morning - after hours of waiting in my bed, drowsily and miserably - to fall sleep, I took some Sleepy Ibuprofen out of desperation.  Just one.  And then I slept until around noon.  Needless to say I didn't get a lot of hours at work which sucks, but I had to get home so I can study.

If it seems like I'm gonna have that kind of trouble again I will take some Sleepy Ibuprofen much earlier in the night because it helped.  It helped me sleep and it helped my bones.  I think I'm having problems sleeping due to stress, but it really messes me up to not sleep so that's a vicious awful cycle that needs to end - like now.  I guess I'm thankful that I have a solution even though I hate relying on meds like that.

Anyway.  Off to study while my brain is awake.  I hope y'all are having more fun than I am on this Friday night.  ❤

Woke up. Cleaned litter boxes. Ate (not from the litter boxes, you weirdos). Got a headache.

Woke up.  Cleaned litter boxes.  Ate (not from the litter boxes, you weirdos).  Got a headache.

Did no studying this evening whatsoever.  🙁  And now I am tired and my brain doesn't feel happy so I'm going to bed again.

This is the typical struggle of a weekday evening for me.  By the time I go to class, then go to work, then get off work and get home, and take care of anything I need to around here, I'm really too exhausted to think about homework or studying.  Some days I can make it work, but some I just can't.  Even though I need the hours I'm probably working a short day tomorrow.  I have to keep my priorities in order.  School is #1.

I know I still have time to think about it, but I have no idea what I will do when I transfer to JSU.  If I get the scholarship it's wasteful to not go full time because it pays for two spring and two fall semesters, but I really don't think I can work and go full time and maintain my grades.  I am told that I can still get my Pell Grant which would help ease the financial burden, but it's not enough to carry me all year.  I have some big decisions that I need to start thinking seriously about at some point this year.  Suggestions are welcome.

If it helps I have to work 20 hours a week to be eligible for food stamps so that's what I'm doing now, but it still feels like too much.  I wonder if TANF is an option.  I know this stupid state doesn't like it when you aim too high so the fact that I would be working towards a Bachelor's degree at that point might disqualify me, but the degree I'm working on now is basically a transfer degree so it's not like I can run out and get a fancy, high-paying job with it... I just don't know.

Anyway.  Goodnight.  Again.