I know that no one likes complaint posts, but here is one anyway:

I know that no one likes complaint posts, but here is one anyway:

I've had a really bad bone day and my skin has that deep tingling that lets me know it's about to get ugly (both literally AND figuratively). I plan to go to the doctor soon - hopefully this week. I REALLY don't want back on methotrexate, but I'm afraid it might be my only option since I am uninsured.

I feel like this is a no-win situation. I will either have chronic skin and bone pain that makes it hard to stay un-depressed, or I will have headaches, nausea, and fatigue that interferes with my life.

I'm in bed. I just can't even with all of this right now. 🙁

One test went wayyy better than expected, and...

One test went wayyy better than expected, and the other... well, went as expected.  LOL

SOMEHOW I made a 103 on my psych test.  😳  It was on babies and children, and while - yes, I've had a kid he hasn't been a baby for quite a long time, and not a kid (up to age 10 is what we studied) for some years, either.  I do remember some things from way back, but man, it's not easy!  We're on adolescents now, so maybe I will have a good handle on the next test.  Or maybe I'll totally bomb it, who knows?

On the Cal test... I made a 66.  I told you so!  LOL  It sounds like most of the class didn't do well, so I'm not beating myself up.  For one:  He is going to give a re-take, and for two, my average (even with a D) is still an 89.47.  Even if I didn't re-take it and do better it's entirely possible I'd still come out with an A.  But I am going to re-take and do better, so... 😛

My depression seems to be back under control, so that's great.  I feel really good about the new stuff we learned in Cal tonight, so that's also great.  I stayed after class and asked if there were any errors that I was repeating and Mr. Osborn identified a few, so that should help me a lot.

Overall I feel pretty optimistic at the moment.  Phew!  And I gotta say, I really think that taking the weekend off of school / studies entirely helped A LOT.  My brain needed a rest.

Also, I finally joined Phi Theta Kappa.  We're selling poinsettias to raise awareness for sex trafficking, so if anyone wants flowers for the holidays let me know and I will get you the details.  🙂

This was a great way to spend the morning.

This was a great way to spend the morning. I needed some nail time with a friend!

I woke up last night due to a dream...

I woke up last night due to a dream that was so scary and realistic (with the actual probability that it could have been a real situation) that I grabbed my firearm.  I was in full panic mode and it took me a few minutes to sort out that the situation was not real.  The location of my phone was the only real tip-off, because it wasn't where I left it in my dream.

Not to try to sound all Billy Badass or whatever, but I have aimed and pulled the trigger at a human being before.  I was 16 and pregnant, and I was scared for my life and that of my unborn child.  Lucky for the person at the other end of the barrel that the gun wasn't loaded.

In case anyone has the idea that I might be going soft in my old age let me be clear that 17 years of working this hard to have what little we've got hasn't softened me one bit.  If anything - it's made me harder and more determined to protect my family and what's ours.

I have a legally obtained firearm.  I have a permit to carry.  My brother has trained me how to use it.  It's not on my bucket list to kill anyone or anything, so I really hope that no one ever forces my hand.

But it is loaded this time.

Ok, earlier I posted about graduating in May.

Ok, earlier I posted about graduating in May.  That's so exciting.  I have more details, but didn't have a chance to post them before now.

So, next semester I will be taking Cal II (the only other credit that I need to graduate), as well as my first Programming class.  I'm SUPER excited to about trying my hand at programming!  I will be graduating after next semester, but I'm staying on at GSCC for Cal III in the summer before transferring to JSU in the fall (I was accepted there last year, but I don't know if I posted that).  I had no idea that you could still take classes at a place after you graduated (I legit thought that graduated = done; I'm telling you - some of this college stuff still feels new to me!)  LOL

There is also currently (UNFORTUNATELY) some issue with JSU's Presidential Scholarship right now (which is what I was banking on getting once I transferred)... we hear that they may be terminating that, so that means I will have to look for other scholarships to help pay for going there.  I have been invited to join Phi Theta Kappa and I hear they have great scholarships, but it costs $75 to join, so I haven't yet.  But I'm thinking I will do it when I get paid tomorrow.  I think it would be a good investment.

Anyway.  That's the current plan.  I feel almost accomplished.  🙂

I just found out that I'm gonna graduate GSCC in May!

I just found out that I'm gonna graduate GSCC in May! The ceremony will be in Centre, but I hear it's nice.

If I even passed that one...

If I even passed that one I will be lucky. 🙁