He's honestly been so spoiled since becoming the only dog. It's pathetic. He's so ruined we might have to throw him out. 😂😂😂
I've had another low-energy day, but 2 good things happened:
1) Kira made this bomb-ass cheesecake last night and we ate the whole thing already, and
2) My handsome, sweet little Tort Baby is waking up after months of brumation. I've MISSED him!
I've been a mess for the last few days and have been avoiding interacting with people IRL and on the Internet when possible. It's PMS time and it hit me crazy hard - both physically and emotionally. I just absolutely have not been any semblance of normal. I've been nauseated and head-achey and LOWWWW energy for the last several days which is NO FUN AT ALL. I've spent most of my time sitting on the couch watching shows with Shaun, or napping. I did shower yesterday, though, which was nice. Well, it was nice physically, anyway.
I don't know how or why but I got in my feelings right before / during that shower. Shaun had asked me once or twice if I would go to the park with him and Cubba and I was like "Maybe. I don't feel that good, though." So in my head the whole time I was in the shower I was just like "I'm just gonna be an adult and tell him I just need to be left alone today. I don't feel good, no park, don't talk to me unless there is food. Like, don't even talk to me about food decisions - tell me after y'all have decided what to eat because I just CAN't today." So after I showered I went to see him and I was keeping my cool and I said basically what I typed.
He's understanding and great because OF COURSE HE IS. But instead of making food decisions with the kids he said that I should choose what would make me feel better and they could just eat with us or not. Then he started listing food I like. And he said "Chinese Food." And let me tell you - I haven't cried that dramatically in AGES. I straight up BAWLED "I don't WANT Chinese! You and Kira always eat my leftovers and I haven't got to eat one leftover yet!" Yes - I cried over Rose and Bruce, but I was somewhat in control of myself in those situations. Over these Chinese leftovers - I was NOT. Not even close.
So we had food from my favorite Mexican restaurant for dinner last night. Before Shaun even got back with the food I had already composed myself and cleaned off the table. My hormones right now are so unpredictable and I hate it. I used to be like this every month (the crying - not the nausea, headache, and fatigue part) and I guess I was used to it, but after a reprieve and then being slammed with it full force like yesterday I can say that I definitely don't miss that roller coaster. I don't know how I got through my teens and early twenties like that. Not that my most recent "normal" of feeling legit sick is any more fun, but anyway. Enough about that.
Today I've been pretty meh. I did, however, go to the park with Shaun and Cubba. We walked a bit and then decided to take Cub into the off-leash doggie park. He'd only been to parks with Rose before and since everything scared her we'd leave if another dog arrived so this was really new for him. There were A LOT of dogs there - I'd say at least 20. They all came running to the gate to smell him before we even got in and eventually I just walked through them and he did, too. He seemed a little jumpy with so many other dogs smelling his butt at one time, but he eventually realized it was all good. He saw some kids and of course visited them (politely) and made rounds playing with other people and getting petted. He play-bowed to a pair of dogs who were playing but immediately looked like "Nevermind, just kidding." and went the other way.
He's a very social boy but I can imagine that he was overwhelmed. He eventually wandered to the gate and we took his cue and left... but not before another dog tried to pee on him. How rude! 🙄 We'll definitely be taking him back - maybe earlier in the day and not on a weekend. I think he'd like it better with fewer dogs until he gets used to things. But today wasn't bad - he handled everyone like a good boy (which I figured he would). He's definitely the social butterfly of the house.
Anyway, I'm off to finish up some things and call it a night. I hope you all are doing well. I promise I'm not ignoring anyone - hopefully I'll feel up to responding to comments and messages tomorrow. Love! ❤️
I felt really bad yesterday. It's PMS time and I was drained and nauseated ALL DAY. I think the only thing I accomplished was taking a shower. Outside of that I napped, ate, and cuddled with Shaun and the animals.
When I got up this morning it was snowing, but it was pretty much gone by the afternoon. Shaun and I built a cat tower for the sunroom and put up some rope lights in there temporarily to see if we like them. We do so we'll get them straightened out and anchored in place soon. We also put together a huge umbrella to shade some outdoor chairs. We made the most of the day, I think.
As the sun was setting, Shaun and I went upstairs to watch it. The last photo is of the sunset. It's pretty, of course, but the clouds on top of the mountains kind of look like a lizard to me.
While I felt less bad today than yesterday I'm still battling bouts of nausea and cramping. I usually have a standing date to video chat with a friend on Thursdays, but I've been so out of sorts lately that I didn't realize it was already Thursday until it was pretty much too late. I feel like a jerk. 🙁 But my friend is amazing and understanding so she's probably not offended.
Rose has officially been gone for a whole week as of today. We all still miss her. The kids were making pizza earlier and when the oven timer went off Kira said something about how Rose always whimpered and whined at the timer. It is a little loud, but Rose used to make a production of it. I guess she never knew when it was coming or what it meant so it stressed her out.
I'm sorry for the messages and comments that I haven't responded to. I feel emotionally like I'm in battery-saver mode so it's hard to try to be social right now. But I love and appreciate you all. ❤️
These are the desserts that Kira made for Valentine's Day. They are SO delicious. I've never had a better cake pop in my life - I swear. It was her first time making them, too! And the bear cupcakes were so adorable!
