I'm feeling extra SPICY today and this is just me blowing off some steam. 😬
I'm cold and uncomfortable and I'm mad about it. The temperature in the house is 70°F and it's sunny out and I'm in a hoodie and socks (with my other clothes, duh) and also under a blanket and I'm still not warming up.
I'm having ANXIETY because there are some things to do around here and they are slow to get done. We're doing the things we have control over (look at my picture - we cleaned the "junk pile" that was in the dining room / other side of my office - so that's nice), but we're waiting on things we just have to wait on. Like the tree trimming that has turned into tree removals 😭😭😭 and the floor situation in the sunroom (we can't put the floor down until it arrives).
I'm sad about the 2 trees were losing, but they're sick and there's no saving them. 😞 The new floor in the sunroom would make cleaning SUPER easy. Right now it's concrete and awful to sweep / vacuum (the litter boxes are out there). We're also waiting for a custom glass panel for our sliding glass door. Right now we have to leave the door open for Bear. The custom one will have a doggie door in it. (Cubba and the cats have been using a doggie door that's placed in a low window with stairs, and Bear can't do stairs.)
The built-in doggie door and the sunroom floor will be super nice to have done because then we can remove the stairs at the window and also have room to move Tort Baby out there, which I am excited to do because I get sensory overload like a bitch when he's scratching next to me and I'm trying to think about / do anything else... Which is a problem because this space is my office now. 😬😂
I am an ENTIRE, WHOLE mess right now because all of these things are nagging at me and on top of it all (or more like, beneath it, probably - and one of the major reasons I'm dealing with things so poorly) is the fact that I've been super terrible with my diet and exercise for a while now so my psoriasis is coming back and my skin feels TERRIBLE. I can only blame myself for that part, but the worse I feel the less good I take care of myself, so it's a bad negative spiral that I need to break ASAP.
Fun times. 😂
Stress sucks.
I think with all of the house changes, losing Oreo, starting a new project at work, the things wrong with Bear, keeping our old cats in good health, etc.... It's been kind of a lot the last few months. No wonder my self-care has been slipping. I need to chill down and focus.
At least having my junk pile cleaned up will help that. It's a good start.
