Despite the rude awakening last night, I feel pretty good-ish today.
I say good-ish because my skeleton isn't super happy. Ever since I had a Dr. Pepper the other day, I've had one almost every day and my psoriatic arthritis isn't a fan. But this is how I'm emotionally coping with the state of the yard and the Bear stress. This is 100% why I can't try a drug harder than caffeine. Addiction runs in my family and I can tell by my reaction to a fucking soda that it's not safe for me to try anything else. It's just not.
I can keep my psoriasis and arthritis to a manageable level without medication if I carefully watch my diet. I have a sweet tooth, though, so it's hard. Sugar is bad for my skin and bones. And these creamy, custom-mixed coconut Dr. Peppers are just so damn good right now. I have given in and accepted that I'm on these at least for the next month. I've quit soda and caffeine before. I can do it again when I feel like I don't need a crutch.
I know this probably sounds so lame. But since starting this drink, revisiting a game I used to play on my phone, making some lists, and finally starting to get some good sleep again, I feel mentally better than I have in a few weeks. All 4 of those things have given me boosts that I really, really needed.
I'm watching Bear nap right now. I'm gonna mess around on my laptop and check a few things off my to-do list while he sleeps. Shaun is currently napping. He really needs it. He hasn't felt well lately. I think that spending so much time outside in the dust with Bear has messed with his sinuses and he's congested.
On top of that, Bear's sedatives seem to be doing less and less to keep him chill, so Shaun's been chasing after him all week while I work. We're basically just propping each other up for the next 4 weeks (until Bear is cleared for normal activity and the yard is less fucked). We've got this. We've definitely been through worse. We'll be ok. We're just not currently having a great time. But that's life, I guess.
