Under the table, because why not? 😂

Under the table, because why not? 😂

Update on my Semaglutide situation:

Update on my Semaglutide situation:

So I'm not doing progression pics or "starting weight" vs. "goal weight" or anything like that.  We have a scale here and I literally never get on it.  I feel like tracking the weight and/or the way I look would just cause me to hyperfocus and I don't want that.  I just want to be healthy and live, so I'm taking my meds, doing my self-care, and trusting the process.

I'm only two doses in; a lot of things I've read say that these are just the "loading" doses, but for me, the "feeling full longer" thing is 100% happening, plus something mentally.

On our anniversary when we went out we got New Mexican food, which comes with chips, salsa, and queso.  Normally, I would stuff myself on those things, and then still cram down as much of my tacos, rice, and beans as I could.  But that didn't happen.  I had a few chips with toppings, but I was ABLE TO BE MINDFUL that I needed my protein, so I was ABLE TO STOP eating until my plate came.  Then I made sure to eat my tacos and beans (protein and fiber), and then I could eat whatever rice and chips I wanted, which wasn't much.  I also didn't even finish my sopapilla with honey.  I was on the "slightly too full" side of feeling satisfied, and just stopped.

If there is ever a time I'm gonna overeat, it's when we have an "excuse" to eat out and cut loose.  But there I was, my favorite foods in front of me, the excuse right there, and my behavior was totally different.  EASILY.  It wasn't a struggle to not overeat.

That is some game-changing shit.

We got lunch today and I did the same.  I got an egg platter, ate my eggs and beans, then had SOME of my waffle.  I have a massive sweet tooth, so leaving sweets uneaten hasn't been a thing I could do in years.  In my 20s I was able to control my eating, but after my 30s (and depression), I was not.  Yet we still have more than half of our gourmet chocolates left from our anniversary.

Part of it is that I do feel full easier/for longer, but a lot of this seems to be having an impact on my mind/the way I'm thinking about food.  I've never tried any other weight loss program or drug so I have nothing to compare it to, but I really appreciate the way this is working for me so far.  It feels like I'm just being allowed to experience what people who have a healthy relationship with food feel.

Aside from that, I had ENERGY yesterday.  From about the time I got up until I sat down to do Shaun's nails around 8 pm, I was moving.  I cleaned out my closet, organized it, checked 3 different tasks off of my to-do list, caught up on laundry and did some other random cleaning.  That is MAJOR.  Before this medication I would tire out much faster and lose motivation, but I had energy and wanted to take full advantage of that.  I woke up feeling energetic today, as well, but I'm doing things at a much more chill pace.

So that's my update for now.  To be honest, as long as I continue to feel as good as I am, the extra weight is the least of my concerns.  I just want to be a functional person, and I really don't remember the last time things felt so easy to do.

Tl;dr:  I feel full longer, I'm able to make better choices regarding food, and I'm energetic.

We took this bad dog out...

We took this bad dog out to pick up our lunch and get pup cups. He "enjoyed" the ride as much as he usually does, but while we were waiting in the drive through for Shaun's coffee and their pup cups, it happened:  A couple of the employees came by with rolling trashcans, and he was ACTIVATED.

Thank goodness he was buckled in, because he would've been out of the window in a heartbeat.  He jumped out on us ONCE before, in the driveway while going very slow [for no reason we could discern], and he's never had the opportunity again. BEAST MODE in the car was ridiculous, but he did eventually calm down.

I guess that's just another reason to avoid off-leash dog parks. We haven't been back to one since Cub was attacked, and at this point with Bear being who he is, it's probably just better for everyone if we're able to keep control over them. I really think that Bear doesn't mean any harm to people since he goes for the ice dispenser and trash bins, but no one knows that in the moment when a crazy-looking creature is roaring wildly and rapidly in their direction, and he's definitely grabbed me before in the heat of the moment, so better safe than sorry.

Anyway. Now he's home doing "normal" Bear things, as you can see. 😂

Today is Shadow's 25th birthday.

Today is Shadow's 25th birthday. It's crazy to realize that he's ¼ of a century old. 😂

He's not celebrating today because he's gotta work. We'll be getting some tasty dinner together as soon as he's off. He's out here being responsible, so I'm proud of him.

I just didn't want to let the day pass without mentioning my Man-Cub. 💜💜💜

Bear is looking pretty comfy. 😂

Bear is looking pretty comfy. 😂 Shaun said he's snoring, too.

Happy 7th year of marriage to my favorite person! ❤️

Happy 7th year of marriage to my favorite person! ❤️

I took the day off work because it's worth celebrating. We've had a chill day. We got some good food and tasty gourmet chocolates, but we were having a little haboob here so it wasn't the best weather to be out in. We've mostly chilled together at home, and that's just fine by me. We finally finished watching Lost. We both hated how it ended. 😂

It's hard to believe how fast the years have flown by since we met, but it makes sense because we're happy. Shaun is the only partner I've ever had who has been willing to sacrifice for me and with me, and I hope I've made those sacrifices worth it. ❤️

We've come so far together. We've built a comfortable life for these kids and these animals. I love working from home and having Shaun here in his comfort zone, wrangling Bear and taking care of the house. I can honestly say that I never get tired of seeing him, he doesn't get on my nerves, and he's truly my best friend. I love that if one of us is ever on some bullshit, the other can call them out with love and humor and shit gets better. Communication - that shit works.

I would say that compromise does, too, but that's a last resort. If we can have separate shit and be happy, that's the go-to. I feel like our utensil drawers say so much about our relationship. I'm a chaos goblin with texture issues and he's at least passable as a regular human person. 😂 But somehow it works, and it's beautiful. ❤️❤️❤️

I love you, Husbang. ❤️

Today was pretty good.

Today was pretty good. I SLEPT last night, and I had energy today.

Work was good, and I got a few things checked off my to-do list, so that was nice. I also potted up about 30 pieces of Teddy Bear cholla. They break off our plants and Shaun picks them up and throws them in a pot and they start rooting. I finally decided I was tired of looking at them in a pile.

I had a protein shake this morning, the last few of my cookie dough bites, a piece of string cheese, and a handful of pieces of freeze-dried cheesecake. I definitely need to eat healthier, but I'm not hungry enough for whole meals. I gotta get some healthy snacks on deck. I will do that this weekend.

So far, so good. 😊