I'm probably just crazy, but...

I think it's true. I'm only human on the outside and something totally different on the inside. That might explain why I've felt so completely out of place for a huge portion of my life. That might explain why no one gets me (as I learned in a rather disheartening conversation last night).

Maybe I was meant to be a cat or something. I'm moody, I'm anti-social until I want to be loved on, and I'll urinate on your bed if you piss me off.

Or - better yet, maybe I should have been a dog... I'm loyal to the extreme so even if you kick me in the face I'll still sniff your ass lovingly. And I bite... I put my mouth all over you for no apparent reason.
I GREW UP IN MUNFORD. MAYBE I WAS RAISED BY ANIMALS.

Whatever the case - I'm just uncomfortable. With myself, with people. They make me nervous. I just want to go home - back to my home planet. All I do know is that I'm tiny and extremely intuitive. I feel too much; I hear things, I see things, I know things (that other people don't).

[help me]

I think this weekend would be a good one to go see my crazy favorite aunt so that I can ask her what crazy feels like. Yeah...

I'm not scared...

Yeah, I'm not scared...

of you,

or you,

or you.

You know who you are and I know that you're reading this.

Heads up - I am no longer doubting myself or what I know.

THE END

Meet Scooter!

I guess I'll just let the pictures do the talking in this one. Enjoy! 😀

The End. 😊

Ch-ch-changes! ... Melissa gave me crabs.

Yeah, a few things happened this past weekend that I haven't posted about. First of all we got six new pets. Yes, 6; in the same weekend, even. (It's not as crazy as it sounds... I'll explain in a moment). The other change is my mood... and I think it has a lot to do with one pet in particular. Another change would be in my perspective; also because of this one li'l fella. So now to explain what I'm talking about...

A friend of mine from way back in the day wrote me and asked if I wanted some hermit crabs... Nick and Shadow had both been hinting that they wanted some hermit crabs for a while now so I was like, "What the hell. Yeah." I had some hermit crabs back in the day and they were pretty cool. So my friend Missy gave me two hermit crabs on Saturday.

Later that day Brooke from Critters (the bestest store ever, btw), called me up. She said that a lady (Janie) had a puppy in the store that she wanted to give away to a good home - Janie's husband had found him under a bus at work earlier that week and they couldn't keep him. Brooke told me that the little guy was pretty much housebroken and really sweet and that she would like for us to come and look at him. So we did.

On the way to the store, though, we were discussing how we didn't really want a dog inside the house and how we didn't want one outside since we don't have a fence yet (our house is pretty close to the road)... so it didn't really seem like the best idea to go looking at a puppy just yet. But, we figured what was the harm?

So we got to Critters, I met Janie, and she was holding the sweetest-looking little ball of fur. She said that they had been calling him Scooter and that he was really no trouble - he's mostly trained and doesn't get into anything. He was a pretty laid-back kind of guy it seemed. Do I even have to say it? I wanted him. So I asked Nick what he thought and he said he liked him, too. He was all, "I guess he could stay inside until we get a fence" and I agreed. I was so relieved - I was worried that one of us would want him and that the other wouldn't. That would've sucked.

Well anyway we didn't take him home Saturday... we wanted to think it over and make sure that we could accommodate him. I got Janie's number and told her I'd call. Before I go any further Shadow has been begging, (pitifully, I might add) for a puppy. He's wanted one that could stay in the house and be his friend. We were pretty much opposed to that since we didn't want one in the house. We'd discussed getting a big dog that would keep people out of the yard once we had a fence, so this was kind of sudden and really unexpected. But the more I thought about it the more I kept thinking that that little sweetie was perfect for Shadow. Come to find out Brooke had the same feeling - that's why she called! Her calling, btw, made me feel really nice. I liked that she was looking out for us and I felt really happy knowing that she must really believe we take good care of our pets. That made my day.

... So I call Janie on Sunday and ask her to meet me back at Critters with Scooter. We took Shadow because we had planned to each pick out another hermit crab to go in the tank with the other ones... but we didn't tell him that he might get a puppy, too. I just wanted to let him meet Scooter and see what he thought first. He seemed to like him so I explained that he needed someone to take care of him and if he promised to do it then we could take him home and let him stay in the house (at least for now). He looked SOOO happy. He just started grinning from ear to ear. So then I let Shadow pick out some of the things we needed for him.

Anyhoo, so far things are going well. Shadow loves Scooter and it's really nice for him to have someone to play with. Scooter has really turned out to be well-mannered and not much trouble at all. Now that he's made himself at home he tries to chew a lot of things, but usually a stern "No!" is enough to make him stop. (Hey, I think that's pretty good considering he's probably teething). He's only peed in the floor twice and I blame myself for those two times. I just needed to get in the swing of taking him out to do that. He doesn't bark (unless he passes by a mirror) or cry so he's not a bother to have around.

Other than that we don't really know too much about him. We don't know what breed he is or his age, exactly. Brooke guessed that he was about 8 weeks old and that maybe he has some basset hound or something like that in him because he is long-ish and has short legs. He also looks like he may have some chow in him because he has purple on his tongue and poofy-looking fur (it's really super-soft, though). Also his face reminded Brooke of a german Shepard... so in essence we don't know anything for sure. All we do know is that he's part of the family now. Don't worry, though... I'll put up a picture soon and you all can try to help me figure him out.

... In summation:

3 crabs (one each for me, Nick, and Shadow)
+2 crabs (from Missy)
+1 Scooter
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6 pets this past weekend and a lot of happy for Blu. 😁

Until next time...

A month and 1/2 of heaven and hell.

Seriously.

A few hours ago I came home to a horrid sight. As I was coming down the street towards my house I realized that I could not see it (my home, that is). It was covered in leaves which were attached to a limb big enough to be a tree by itself. It had fallen on my roof. So naturally I FREAKED OUT. That's just what you do, you know. So I got out of my car, stopped thinking, and started shaking. I couldn't find my keys to get into the house (they were still in the ignition of the car), I had my cell phone out and was pressing numbers frantically - trying to call someone (though I couldn't tell you who I thought I was calling), then finally I started crying. I found my keys, got in the house, and called my dad. I couldn't even talk. I just started squeaking and crying and my dad sounded really concerned. So I shut up long enough to tell him what was going on and he said he would come over.

Well, dad came, the neighbors were there, my mom showed up, and so did my brother and one of his friends (Cade was here on a four-day leave with a friend and they both ended up helping out). I called my insurance agent and he said to get the limb off. I went around taking a bunch of pictures first and then we all got to it. So it's off now and the roof isn't damaged as badly as I'd dreaded it being. My dad's gonna help me fix it (he's a carpenter with roofing being one of his strong points) so that's a good thing. I'm really glad that's over.

I have to say that I still love my house and owning a home. It truly is a nice feeling. There's freedom to do what you want, credit and equity to build, and a nice comfy place to call your own. I love it, but I have not had an easy start.

• The oven still doesn't work (luckily I don't have to pay for that to be fixed, though).
• Someone broke my back windows - pretty purposefully, I'd say... one hole looks perfectly round like a little bullet of some sort and the rest looks like it was done with rocks or a ball or something... 
• And now the limb. Not to mention the whole tree falling in the back yard, (which didn't damage anything, but an annoyance nonetheless - we still haven't moved it), and another big-ish limb that fell in front of the garage.

*sigh* Hopefully, nothing else will go wrong.

Graduation

So... it's official that I'm the mother of a big First Grader now. 😀 Graduation was fun - they sang and danced and it was adorable. 😊😍 I laughed and cried through the whole thing. The only drawback to that was that NONE of my pictures turned out. They're ALL blurry and that makes me sad. 😞 But, if all goes as planned one mother at the graduation said that her husband had filmed it (hopefully at least the song and dance parts) and that she'd make me a copy. Her kid was in Shadow's class, too, so maybe there will be some good shots of my boy. He danced his little butt off today. 😁

It's Monday & I'm pooped.

Well, I hope to keep this one kind of short so I'll just get to it. Thursday I had to pick up Shadow from school because he was sick and that's pretty much lasted until now. Over the weekend he seemed to get better with a little TLC and Tylenol so I sent him to school today and ended up having to go get him again. 😐 I took him to the doctor and he had a temp of 102.8°F and strep throat. 😕

He had to get a shot. Ya know he's 6 years old, but that still doesn't stop me from getting all teary-eyed when they have to do that. It sucks. 🙁 Also I felt really bad for him already because one day this weekend I closed the car door on his head. He knows not to get out of his seat belt until he's told to do so and we were in a parking lot about to get out and a car was trying to park right by me so I closed the door... Unfortunately, Shadow had decided to stand up and stick his head out right about then. I didn't see him until it was too late. 😭

He has a bruise and that's all. I felt terrible (and will probably have nightmares for a while), but that's just one more reason why kids should listen to their parents. I probably could've killed him if I'd closed it harder and I told him so. I don't think he'll be doing that again. I truly hope not.

Anyway, since he was sick this weekend he slept a lot. So I had time to get one more room sort of situated. It's the front room - the room you walk into when you come in the front door. We have a lot of the animals in there and I think it looks pretty nice. It could still use a little work, but it's fine for now. So... that leaves 3 rooms to finish. They will probably not be completed anytime soon.

On to the pics.

This is our porch type area. I like it out there. 😄

If you look to the left after you walk in this is what you'll see. (It's where the gliders and the parakeet live).

If you keep looking around you'll see Shadow's desk (complete with a hedgehog on top )(who, btw, is rather cuddly - or at least tries to be). 😍

The chameleons' fancy setup.

And finally: the mantle with a bunch of random stuff on it such as: the Matrix box-thing, a lamp, and a shark fin and hand print that Shadow made, and his cap & gown pic. SO cute!! 😁

And that's pretty much that room. It's not perfect, but it's better than being crammed full of ugly boxes and stuff. I'm pleased... at least for now. 😄 And exhausted so I'ma go. LOVE!!!