Over the last 5 years school has kept me busy enough that I barely had a social life. But me and Shaun like to go out for food. That has kind of always been our thing. That's how we started dating - taking lunch breaks together at work. So it's been a big change to stay home all the time. It really sucked at first, but I've gotten pretty used to it and that's ok.
But leaving the house is NOT ok for me yet. Seeing people in masks is really off-putting... I guess because that's not "normal." Seeing how many of the workers didn't have masks bothered me just as much, though, because I felt worried about them. Seeing things as busy as they are during a pandemic got to me a lot. Seeing all of these workers out here doing their jobs despite how dangerous it is makes my heart hurt. It was really all I could do to not cry on the way home because these people likely don't have a choice whether to work or not - it's work despite the danger or lose everything. What an awful position to be in. My heart hurts. I feel guilty for us being fortunate enough to not be on the front lines. I don't know what to do with that emotion.
Anyway, I hope you all are doing well and staying safe.
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