I was on here earlier and I had to get off.

I was on here earlier and I had to get off.  I felt overwhelmed.  I'm very happy to see so many people - especially white ones - sharing and caring and standing up for our black brothers and sisters.  But there is unfortunately the other side to that coin and it is ugly and ignorant.  I haven't in years had the mental energy to fight people on the internet the way I used to (yay for sketchy mental health), but I did talk to someone who I thought could be reasoned with.  He stopped replying so either he's thinking or just turning a blind eye to my replies.  In any event - I gave what I could today.

I'm only back because I want to post about my animals because it makes me happy to talk about them.  Shaun and I revamped Tort Baby's house the other day.  I also clipped his nails.  He didn't seem phased by it, but they ended up super sharp so I'm going to see about using the Dremel on him in the next few days.  We also changed out Bruce's (ball python) bedding and spent a little bit of time with him.  He's as sweet as ever.  I'm planning to spend a good bit more time with the reptiles now that I'm dogless.  I honestly feel very lonely.  Cats just aren't the same.

More on that:  Yes, we have two dogs outside (Cubba and Rose).  I guess we aren't technically dogless as a household, but neither of them were meant to be MY dogs and I never bonded with them like I did my pack.  I'm not saying that I won't ever, but I'm definitely not ready yet.  I don't think I'll be fostering or planning to get another forever dog until we can do better by Cubba and Rose.  That isn't fair to them.  I've trained Cubba before and he's smart as hell so I know he could be an inside dog, but Rose is a whole 'nother story.  She's wild and we never spent any time with her.  She is Cubba's dog.  😂😂😂  I legit got her so he wouldn't be lonely and escape the fence.  I'm aware that's shitty but she needed a place to go and we had a purpose for her and a safe space, so it is what happened.  I don't think it makes her untrainable, though.  She will just be WORK.

Aside from that we got a fountain for the cats.  You would think they've never had water with as much as they drank yesterday.  Needless to say, it's a hit.  We like it, too.  It's quiet, it's clear so we can see when it needs to be cleaned or refilled, and it's got two levels so more than one cat can drink at the same time.  And so far, no one has stuck their feet in it - THANK GOODNESS.

Since I no longer have a buddy to share my bedroom with I have more floor space since the trundle isn't pulled out.  I'm still really sad about my dogs.  The timing of their deaths was so close together that I still worry it was something I did or something in my bedroom.  It just doesn't make sense, though.  But anyway, I've put a bit of work into my room over the last few days and I think I finally have enough space to bust out my yoga mat.  I've never done yoga at home but I won't be going to the gym anytime soon, so I'm making my space as nourishing to my mind and body as I can.  It's beautiful with plants and light.  It's warm, cozy, and colorful.  It'll make a great office space when I get a job.  I don't know; I'm just happy with it and wanted to say so.

I guess I'm off.  I hope you all are staying safe and doing well.  Please don't be racist.  I love you.