Today has been pretty good.

Today has been pretty good.  I woke up and had my tea and petted my cat.  I got hugs and kisses and cuddles from Shaun.  That's all pretty usual, but I had feelings this time and they were good ones.  I just looked at Shaun and he was so beautiful to me that I complimented him enough times to make him uncomfortable.  Oops.  😂😂😂

I did my chores today, early enough that I will do some more math in a bit.  I have been thinking about other things I need / want to do.  I haven't done them yet, but I'm grateful that the thoughts are there and that there is a "want" in me to be productive.  I am grateful that I can think of stuff I need to do and not feel overwhelmed.

I feel like my depression is lifting.  I know a lot of people get sad, but I get numb and paralyzed and tired / sleepy.  The fact that I can feel my feelings and think about things without panicking is so amazing.  Yes, there are still a lot of stress-inducing things going on in life and the world in general, but today I can take a deep breath and tell myself that we're ok and we're going to keep being ok.  I don't really know how else to express how I feel other than that I am grateful.

I know that a lot of you are struggling with depression and anxiety.  Even before the pandemic I knew of several people who were struggling and according to the news, those numbers have increased dramatically.  I don't have anything more useful that I can say to you besides:  Seek help.  Find a way to see a therapist or a doctor if you need medication.  It is absolutely worth it to try.  I hope you all are doing well!  ❤