Welcome back, Blu... : )

... I'm thinking happy thoughts right now. I've been in a pretty awesome mood for like... well, a while now. I'm loving it. I honestly think it's because (for now, at least) I have pretty much all I've ever wanted. I absolutely COULD NOT ask for more. Seriously, it's beyond good... I'm actually starting to feel comfortable, secure... I feel pieces of me peeking out... pieces of myself... starting to feel less shy - like I'm finally recovering and I don't know how that happened, but DAMN, I'm not complaining. I've missed me, missed having me around...

I'm so happy right now I could cry. I'm crying. If you knew the back story, (which dates back 6-ish years), you'd understand. (I'll probably blog about it and explain at some point). But that's how long I've been gone. I've wanted to come back for a while now, but I didn't have the courage. I didn't have the strength, either. I was too scared. But for quite some time I've had someone in my life who was patient, who deemed me worthy of their time, and I really feel like it's starting to sink in. You know who you are and I appreciate you. I'd be lost without you. I don't feel like my journey back to me is nearly complete, but I feel like I'm making progress. And that feels damn good.

Saturday / Chocolate Hair

So Saturday turned out quite nicely. We (a big group of people I like) went out and did stuff. We went go-kart riding first. Nick and I didn't participate, but Shadow did and I think he liked it. It was funny because the girl who was driving his car rear-ended the row of cars that stopped in front of her. It happened on accident (no one was hurt), but it was pretty damn funny.

After that we went out to the Mellow Mushroom. The food was pretty good... I wish I had gotten some cheese sticks or whatever they call them there, but I didn't think about it. Oh well. So after that we went to the bowling alley which reminded me of a laundry-mat (or the skating rink for that matter). It kind of grossed me out... I didn't bowl, but I still had a good time. Btw, Nick looked really cute in those bowling shoes.

Anyway, someone was kind enough to let Shadow have their turn and give bowling a try and that proved quite funny. He lugs the ball up there, sits it down, and kicks it. 😆 It didn't go very far so he walked after it and tried to kick it again. Needless to say he fell flat on his back. His feet flew right up over his head. It was hilarious. 😂😂😂 He was fine, though.

Oh, and that was one of the slowest gutter balls I've ever seen. Yeah, someone had to actually roll a gutter ball on purpose to get it to go all the way down the lane. So then me and Shadow went home and took a few pictures. Here's the first one... looka my chocolate hair (and no, I don't wear it that way). The second one my boy actually took. We were goofing off. 😀

Ok, THE END.

Thursday, Friday

So yesterday was nice - very relaxing. Me, Nick, and Shadow went to Oxford Lake and walked around for a while. The weather was good; a bit windy and cool, but good. We listened to our music, and talked, and walked. We're gonna have to do that more often. 😊

Today was pretty cool, too. I got some good news at work... it seems that things will be looking up for us. We now have someone coming in to do the things my current boss doesn't like to do / isn't good at. I've met the new guy twice; so far I like him. He seems like a good kind of guy. Also, since he will be moving into the office with the boss that means I get moved out (which is a good thing). I didn't like how my back was to the door in the office I'll be leaving soon (I hear that's bad Feng Shui and it made me paranoid, anyway) and I couldn't very well change it around since it wasn't my office. So as of next week I will be getting my own cubicle facing the door and I like that. Plus, with business picking up I will be staying a lot busier, which is the way I like it. I'm pleased. 😀

Also, Shadow spent the night with his grandmother (which kind of sucked, but he hasn't done it in three weeks so I guess it's ok). Me and Nick hung out - just the two of us. We went out to eat and wandered about for a few... I ended up buying us some cute little holder things for our mp3 players... I think they're gonna work out quite nicely. 😊 Then we watched Anchorman and that was funny. He said I remind him of the short guy... the one who loves lamp. 😂 What's so bad is that I can kind of see that.  😝

Ok, well, I'm done now. Later!

... This is pretty gay.

So Wednesday I went to the mall. I went there to meet someone and ended up seeing an old crush. I didn't recognize her at first, but I still thought, "Wow, she's cute." Then I realized who it was and I just thought, "Well, of course she's cute. She always was." We talked for a moment and that was cool. I've missed her on and off since back in the day. Honestly, we were good friends and I was attracted to her... so I call it a crush.

Anyway, life happens, friendships change and grow closer or apart, and we ended up drifting our separate ways. Just one of those things, I guess. But to tell the truth if she would've had me I likely would have left my boyfriend for her. ... To this day, I'm still not sure if she knows, though.

... So as I was leaving this girl at a makeup stand wanted to put lip gloss on me and talked me into it. So I'm sitting there and she's putting lip gloss on me and I'm looking down her shirt. I just sort of do that, I guess. I admit it - I like boobies. Whatever. So I didn't have any money to buy lip gloss, but I was supposed to come back and buy some today... seriously, I just don't have $20.00 to drop on lip gloss right now. And it wasn't even flavored. I've kind of felt bad all day for telling her I would come back and not doing it - especially after I looked down her shirt like that. But it was right in my face, ok? Right there. It's not like I could help it. (Btw, I don't have a clue if she noticed).

So anyway... yeah. That's all for this one.

Christmas pics!!! (There's 2 you HAVE to see). :D

Hey... here's another picture entry! This one might be the last for a while... I can't think of any other events I've taken pictures of lately that anyone would be interested in.

So here goes:  This one picture is what made my holidays so awesome. They're always great because of Shadow, but this year... it was just different. When you miss someone so much and then get to have them around it truly makes you appreciate getting to see them. This is my little brother, (or my hero, if anyone noticed the change on my profile). He's in the Army and it's been FAR too long since I saw him last.

Cade right after he got off the bus.

Cade and Shadow goofing off, of course. 😁

Now for the Christmas pics...

Nick and Shadow playing with the Dr. Dreadful food lab that Santa brought. Who's having more fun here? 😂

Shadow, aka "The Thing" from Fantastic Four. 😀

Shadow, aka "The Human Torch" from the Fantastic Four.

 This kiddo loves to dress up. He has so many costumes.
Well, I hope everyone enjoyed those. I've been having fun putting them up. Now... wait for it... wait for it...

THE END. 😝

Also...

At work today I broke the clock on the wall. We have these cubicle-type wall things set up and one of my coworkers, Colin, threw something at me and Mike over one. I was being goofy and kicked at the wall. The clock proceeded to fall off and the glass promptly shattered. 😳 Mike had seemed pretty down during break, but he burst out laughing when that happened. He said that was the first time he'd laughed all day. At least some good came of it. 😂 And for the record I wasn't in trouble or anything. The boss bought that clock at a yard sale for like $.50.

... And now I must go. Yorda is being crazy hyper and just peed in the chair I am sitting in.

S'mores, hair, gay neighbor ladies with spatulas...

Marshmallows make me happy. Yeah, I said it. And probably fat, too, but I guess we'll just wait and see. 😆 I've been eating a lot of toasted marshmallows lately. Nick brought some over for his cocoa and taught me how to toast them over an electric stove (which btw, my mother always told me wasn't possible) so I had to buy a bag of my own and I just can't stop eating them. And last night we made dark chocolate s'mores. Oh yeah. 😁 They would've been a lot better if we'd had thinner dark chocolate, but the bars you get at Wal-Mart are freakin' jumbo size. Oh well. There's no such thing as too much dark chocolate.

Speaking of dark chocolate - that's really similar to my hair color now. I wanted to go with something darker (but not black) so it's just this awesome deep brown color. Nick helped me pick it out and then he put it on there for me. I didn't want any missed spots or anything. I can't walk around with my hair color all jacked up. 😜

Weird thing this morning. It was all frosty out so I went out to let my car warm up to melt the frost off and my gay neighbor lady was coming out of her apartment with a spatula. She said she was going to scrape the frost off my window for me so that I wouldn't be late, but I told her I had time to let it melt off. She said she needed something to do to keep her awake so I was just like, "Well, ok. Thanks." She's so awesome (and funny and strange sometimes). 😁

Today we went to the pet store. I saw the cutest thing! A leopard gecko who (body orange and tail purple) was drinking some water. He had such a cute flat little red tongue! I guess it was just the way he was perched on his water bowl - I dunno. But it was adorable. Also, the cockatoo who lives there, Spanky, was spazzing out. This song came on the radio and I swear he was dancing. It cracked me up; he was showing out. And a ferret bit me REALLY hard. It was a young one - those rambunctious little shits - so I wasn't mad. It really hurt, though.

Well I guess that's all of my rambling for tonight. I'll probably try to post another picture entry tomorrow for those of you who care. It will most likely be Christmas pics - some of which are pretty funny, too. Looks like I'm about to catch up with myself! Yay!

Ok... THE END