Minuit

So I finally got Hairy a friend. Her name is Minuit which is French for midnight. She's albino, but she has some darker patches of fur that would've been black had she not been albino. She's a pretty lil thing... the only one in the store like her. 😁

When I first put her and Hairy together I don't think they were getting along too well. So they both got a bath and then rubbed with vanilla extract so that they'd smell the same. That made them get along better. Minuit DEFINITELY needed a bath. She was SO dirty (and she smelled terrible, too). But now they both smell quite yummy.

(Btw... Hairy does NOT like getting bathed. She fought me the whole time. But Minuit just sat there after a moment and let me wash her little face and tail and all her fur. She was SO good!)

Anyway, so here's some pictures. 😊

"Hello!"

"I'm Minuit. Who are you??"

Hairy's a camera whore. 😂

The things I have to say:

First of all:  Thanks to everyone who sent me Happy Easter comments. I haven't been on the internets much this weekend (you'll understand why in a moment...), but I hope you all had a good day, too.

Nick took me out to Fuji one evening this weekend... that's never really been my thing, but the food was good. (Yes, I actually found something I like - I'm a terribly picky eater). Perhaps it will be my thing eventually. I tried eel (I think). Tastes like watermelon (seriously, it did). We were joined by the lovely Amber and Jerry which was fun.

Our floor is looking quite sexy. We spent all weekend on it (aside from a short break to visit family and let Shadow hunt eggs) so it should look nice. Thanks an extra lot to Jerry and Amber for helping out... we SO needed someone with skillz (Jerry) working with us, and Amber kept me sane. Ehh... it's been hectic. Lots of stress and pressure to get things done. (Our next projects probably won't be so stressful, but going a day and a half without a toilet or sink will stress you OUT). However, I did find out one amusing fact: I can almost fill up a regular sized KFC cup with urine first thing in the morning. Haha, TMI right out of nowhere! You weren't expecting that, were ya?

Also, more about the floor. The bathroom is done in white and wood, mostly. It looked pretty "old lady" in there. But the new floor is SEVERIOUSLY changing all that and somehow makes it look a bit bigger, too. I can't wait to see the finished product (it's not a look I've seen done elsewhere...) I will DEFINITELY be posting pics when we're done. Woohoo! And also I think we've pretty much decided that most of the carpet in the house is going to have to go. It's just so gross. (Not just ours because it needs shampooing, but all carpet. It's like socks you almost never wash.) Ugh.

Well, thank goodness I didn't blog. I worked all my frustrations out on the floor, I do believe. I may still fill you in laters... (I hate to be left hanging so I try not to do that to others). Anyway, that's it for now!

Lap dog

Every time I sit down...

Disconnected

That's what I feel. That's what I don't want to be. Here's a question: Why is there so fucking much to living?? Why does there have to be?? There doesn't. Whoever the fuck thought it was a good idea to do anything more than grow your own fucking food and sit on the porch with your family was a moron. You get so caught up in everything else... taking care of everything else - that you find yourself disconnected from the things that you love... the reasons that you bust your ass in the first place. It's stupid. You take care of the ones you love in so many other ways that you neglect the important parts. Then you realize it and hate yourself.

Society today sucks. I can't wait for the changes. If you don't know what I'm talking about, well, don't worry - neither do I. I just know it's coming. Things can't go on like this forever. I'm starting to feel certain that I'll be alive for the time when things do change and whatever it is it will be a welcome break. Fuck all this working shit. My Shadow's no longer my Shadow - not even on the sunny days because I'm stuck in a cold gray office 40 hours per week. I didn't even take one day off while he was out on spring break to hang with him. I regret that. Nick was not feeling well today and I wanted nothing more than to stay home and comfort him. When he softly kissed my cheek goodbye this morning I almost would've rather died than have to walk away.

I've noticed that I do my most "profound" thinking first thing in the morning... either that or I'm still half asleep and dreaming. This morning as I poured my Coke over ice I wondered to myself if I was feeling sort of the way an alcoholic does... wanting that first sip, knowing it will somehow help me through the day. Feeling disconnected, pouring away.

So when our father's from another planet come back to enslave us I really hope they're kind enough to give us a porch and a deck of cards. Keep us in our primitive little tribes, or families. Let us play cards after a hard days work if we've earned it. Wouldn't it be nice? Not have to worry about anything else? Just do what's necessary to live and spend time with the ones who matter?? I think it would be great. THAT would be the life. I feel that I should be preparing for whatever may come. Learn how to NOT kill plants. I can take care of my animals, but I have NO green thumb, whatsoever. Learn to can and freeze food - just in case.

I don't know what it's going to be like. With global warming hopefully the weather will be pleasant in the winter. I don't like being cold and I don't know if there will be electricity. The need to get a fence is more urgent than ever to keep animals and other people from stealing out of the garden I will have. I don't know if people will come together or fight each other to survive. So I may need a gun. Maybe Shadow will have reached his adult size by the time things change so that we won't have to worry about getting him bigger clothes all the time. Yes, if things change drastically he's staying with me for as long as he wants to. Hopefully, it will be necessary to stick together and take care of each other. That's my place in life anyway. I'm never happier than when I'm caring for another. Speaking of Shadow, though, what about birth control?? I wonder how we'll do that... if clinic's will be functional. Who knows?? It's scary, but exhilarating. I can't wait. I'm just biding my time and waiting for something better.

Some days, like today, I feel like I should just say, "Fuck it all. I do what I want." And honestly I feel like we should all be able to. What's the deal with sacrificing your sanity for "modern conveniences"? It's stupid. And it's not convenient at all. You can't just decide to no longer work and not have electricity. You can't choose to live that way. That shit will get your kids taken from you in a heartbeat. Nobody seems to realize or care, but WE, AS INDIVIDUALS, DON'T HAVE A CHOICE anymore. That's why people become hobos and shit. At least some of them. They're tired of it all. And I can't blame them. The hobos are definitely gonna survive when things change. You better be nice to them now 'cause they'll be a time when they might need to have mercy on you. Think about THAT.

I'm done.

*burps*

So I just got home... it's just me and my kiddo for now. It's nice to have him home... he's spent the night away several times this week due to spring break. I've missed him.

On the way home from PetSmart he rode in the front seat with me. Emma had just thrown up in the back so he didn't want to sit back there. We talked a lot. It was nice.

I just ordered pizza because I'm tired of being out and I've got a ton to do here. Nothing pleasant; mostly just cleaning that I've neglected all week. Oh, and the ferrets. I don't really see Friday as a great day to go out or hang out because I'm always exhausted from the week by then so that's my ferret-cleaning day. May as well get it over with so that if I have guests over during the rest of the weekend my house won't smell ferret-tacular. Don't get me wrong; I like ferret musk. But there's six in our house right now and it can be a bit overwhelming if not tended to.

My carpet looks so disgusting. It's needs a good shampooing. But I'm not doing it until the bathroom is fixed so that I can put Scooty back in there during the day. He'd pee on my clean carpet I just know.

I need to hang out with Hairy. I haven't held her in like two days. That's not cool. 😕

Anyway...

Good day.

So today was pretty good. I got up on time for once and actually made it to work on time, too. Do you have any idea how hard it is to get ready for work with a giant dog trying to wedge her way into your lap?? I do. 😂  But that's ok. Luvvins make my day go better.

Also, I had a job interview for a part-time weekend position and I got the job. I'm pretty excited. Pitifully, it pays MUCH better than my full-time job... but anyway. It'll help and I'll enjoy it so that's good.

On the way home me and Nick saw what we believe to be a groundhog. I saw it yesterday in the same area, but he didn't. The best way I could describe it to him was a really fat squirrel or a bizarre-looking cat (I only saw it from behind). But he saw it today and we actually stopped to get out and take pictures. It left before we could get to it. It was cute, though!

Then we went to see "Black Snake Moan." That was a pretty good movie. Today was it's last day here... well, in Gadsden (did you know that they have a couch in their bathroom?!?). I HAD to see it, though. You get to see Christina Ricci's boobies. 😀 And Justin Timberlake is a terrible actor. But anyway. Still a good movie.

Then we had a romantic dinner at Popeye's. Yes, it was lovely. We were both hungry. VERY hungry. So we ate. And it was good. 😋

Aside from two pretty awesome, unexpected conversations that was my good day! Now I'm getting ready for bed - I'm pooped.

Birthdays and parties and such.

As most of my friends know yesterday was Shadow's birthday. He's getting so close to double-digits that it's scary. 😲 Anyway, I think he had a pretty good day. Nick went ahead and gave him his presents instead of making him wait until today at his party. He seemed to like them. He also got a few "Happy Birthday" comments and messages which seemed to make him happy. Thanks to all who thought of him. 😊

Other than that I can't really think of anything else noteworthy yesterday other than some phone calls. My mom called first thing in the morning which just seemed to make his day. After school his father called (more on that later). Jajuan called all the way from China to wish him a happy day and that was really sweet. And finally, my brother called at about 10 pm. He's in Hawaii so there's a time difference and he didn't get a chance to call any earlier (he's in the Army so you could imagine how that goes). Though Shadow looked a little stunned when I woke him up to take the call I think he enjoyed hearing from his Uncle Cade. 😀 He always does.

So back to the phone call with his father. When Shadow answered he was all "Who's this?" Then he smiled all big. That's ok, but I just hate that he'll have his feelings hurt again when he doesn't hear from him anymore until next year. Even if he does it doesn't last but maybe a month anyway. 😕 Well, they talked for a few then hung up. His father called back a bit later and said that someone else wanted to talk to Shadow. I correctly assumed that it was one of his half-sisters. Shadow was standing near me so I could hear the conversation. It went like this:

Phoenix: Happy birthday, Shadow.

Shadow: Thank you.

Phoenix: I miss you, Shadow.

Shadow: I know.

Phoenix: I love you, Shadow.

Shadow: Thank you.

Seriously. Isn't that sad? He's never even met his little half sister before, but apparently his father's trying to make them out to be close or something. I felt bad for her that she wasn't getting "I love you, toos" and "I miss you, toos" back, but Shadow simply doesn't know her. And I know she wouldn't have said any of those things if they hadn't told her to. I really don't think that they should have - that's only going to hurt her in the end.

Anyway, just wanted to get that off my chest. Today was Shadow's party and it went pretty well, I think. He (and the rest of the kids there) seemed to have a lot of fun. I'm really glad. I had a good time, too. It was nice to see people that I don't usually get to see. Ok, enough blabber. On to the pictures!

Shadow's super awesome red velvet The Punisher / GhostRider / flame birthday cake. Yes, that was his idea. 😂

Shadow blowing out his candles.

Group photo, but I think some of the kids were missing. 😕

And there you go!