Killing time while digesting. (Part 2)

There are a few new things with me.  First of all we have kittens.  They're pretty much Shadows and he's doing an excellent job caring for them.  Of course they both just found their way to me... spoke to me - I guess you could say.  I didn't plan to keep the first one, but Shadow really wanted her.  She's solid black and her name is Midna.  He promised that he would take care of her so I was like, "Well, ok."  Shortly after we fed her that first night I found her curled up in Shadow's lap asleep.  He was all, "I sang her to sleep."  Who could say no to that?!?

We ended up getting her a friend from my mother (because she was driving me [and the guinea pigs] CRAZY! - ever try to sleep with a kitten slicing you up?)  She just needed some companionship and someone to tire herself out with.  So her friend is solid gray and her name is Twilight.  They make a good pair.  I've had mixed feelings about having them around (one isn't consistently using the litter box and one of my dogs literally begins to water at the mouth when they come near her), but I think things will smooth out.  We're just having to be careful right now is all.

Well, I guess all of the news is not happy news.  Stella passed away last week and I'm really unsure why.  She was doing fine and then BAM! she was dead.  😢  It just made me sick.  Literally I felt nauseated.  Stella was too sweet.  I think anyone who's ever met her has at least teared up when they found out.  She was just a doll.

Aside from that things have been pretty good.  Moved things in the house around a bit and I think it looks nice.  Now I have a lot more space in my bedroom and now that the computer isn't in there I'm just less drawn to it.  The computer is really close to the dogs' room so when I'm sitting here ignoring them I feel really bad.  And then I get off my ass and go love on them.  I guess that's one way to keep my internet usage in check.  😂

Anyway, I think I'm done digesting my juice.  I have to pee like you wouldn't believe.  So I guess that's a good enough reason to get up and get moving.  😂

I hope everyone is doing well.  ❤

hitting hard times :(

So I've done the unthinkable: re-homed a few of my pets. The last ferret I took in has gone to stay with my step-sister. He seems happier there. He lived alone before he came to me and I don't think living with Static and Stella was his cup of tea. So now he has free run of the house quite often and it seems to be working out for everyone. Honey and Milkshake now live with a dear friend. I just never got as attached to them as I did Hairy and Minuit. I think it was too soon... I was trying to help Minuit out by getting her a housemate, but then she died leaving the new rat alone so I ended up buying a newer rat to keep the new rat company. If I'd known Minuit was gonna die anyway I wouldn't have bought the first one to begin with. So that was just a thing I did that didn't work out as I'd hoped...

Anyway, I also sent my gliders to live elsewhere. There was some weirdness going on with them that I could just no longer deal with. A rat, a mouse, the last hermit crab, and the hamster have died. The last time I tried to post a memorial PhotoBucket was being a dick and I never came back to it. I guess I have some catching up to do.

I still have more of a houseful than I need, but I have a hard time parting ways with my kids. Speaking of fur kids something is wrong with Scooter and I hope, Hope, HOPE it works itself out SOON because I certainly do not have the money to take him to the vet. He's had diarrhea and been vomiting for like a week and I've done everything I know of to fix him. I haven't switched foods on him, I've given him dewormer (just in case), I've made sure there's nothing un-foody around that he could be getting into. I just don't know what else could be going on. I treated them all for fleas with CHEMICALS! - which I'm normally opposed to doing, but nothing else is working. The fleas are MONSTEROUS this year. 😟 I wonder if that could have jacked him up.

Speaking of diarrhea - Scooter's just been going where ever he goes. For the most part he's done pretty well considering that there's no one home to let him out mid-day anymore, but now that he's sick all bets are off. And he likes to do his business in the big room where the floor is concrete or cement or whatever. Which you know - is porous. It's like trying to mop up wet poo from a sidewalk or something - it just doesn't work. So my house smells like sickly shit right now and it pretty much grosses me out. I actually feel a little nauseated because of it. But I have not found a way to get it completely up - most of what I do seems to just... rub it in. Mayhaps that's something I can work on in a bit. Suggestions?

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't a little scared...

So... I've put myself into a situation where I'm going to be doing the whole "single parent" thing again. It was quite intentional (and necessary), but nonetheless I'm a little scared. It's been a while since I've been completely on my own.

I remember when I first moved out by myself (well, with Shadow). I was like, "Whoa, how the fuck do people DO this??" But I did it and I was ok. Now, it's kind of like that - but different. Whereas before I had nothing - now I have a lot to lose if I don't get things right. Mostly what I'm referring to, I suppose, is my house. It's not the greatest thing ever, but it's home. Even if I do stay caught up on my bills I don't have much left over for repairs. And believe me - there are a lot of them stacking up.

In March I quit working 3 jobs. I probably shouldn't have done that, but I wasn't being treated very nicely and it was so hard to juggle it all. With school starting back soon and no babysitter on call three jobs wouldn't be an option for me right now if I wanted it to. I'm feeling pretty grateful for that, though, seeing as how time off is a lot more valuable to me when I have good friends to spend it with.

Also, I have two cars. Neither of them are running at the moment. Both of my parents are working to help me with them and I greatly appreciate it. I just wish I had something reliable to drive. I think I've been stranded, like, 5 times this month. It never lasts long, but it scares the shit out of me. It's not so great.

I've been thinking a lot about trying to get child support. I never tried to pursue that in all of Shadow's 8 years, but the more I think about it the more I want to. The main two things that have stopped me were: 1) I didn't want to be sued for joint custody or visitation or whatever, and 2) I knew Shadow's father wouldn't hold a job and would probably end up in jail. So, it's been pointed out to me that 1) He calls and I let him talk to Shadow regardless / he's a felon on house arrest anyway so it's not likely that he would be able to get custody, and 2) If he'd been in jail all this time he probably wouldn't have so many other kids running around right now. (Btw, I'm not shit-talking him - he's a really nice guy. Just in trouble a lot).

I'm still on the fence on this one. Maybe I'm too nice. Maybe I'm reaching a point in my life where I'm tired of being nice and getting walked on. For what it's worth, though, he's had plenty of time (8 years!) to get his shit together and "help us" like he's promised to do since Shadow was born and all he does is get into more trouble. I think I'm just really losing patience with this whole "one day" mentality that's floating around me.

So I'm preparing for things to be kind of tight around here. It breaks my heart to think of it, but I might have to re-home some of my pets. Probably definitely the ferrets because their food is so much more expensive than anyone else's. I'm not all that attached to my girl ratties (even though they're not much trouble) - after Hairy and Minuit passed it just hasn't been the same. I hate to admit it, but I've just not been able to get close to them. I've got a bunch of cages and stuff that I'll probably post up on Craigslist or something... if I don't get them out of my house I know I'll be tempted to fill them again. No harm in removing them and making a few bucks, right?

You know, I have a really awesome job and it's not like I'm broke as fuck... I think I'm just starting to freak out a little because I won't have anyone to fall back on. Just me to blame if shit doesn't go as planned. While I'm really looking forward to the near future - I'm nervous. I haven't been "on my own" in probably pushing 3 years. I guess it's time to buckle down and see if I'm still as resilient as I used to be. I sure as hell hope so.

For Shame...

Y'all don't know every detail of what's been up with me lately. Lucky for you I can fix that. 😜

Two weeks ago I took in a new ferret. His name is Mocha. He's farkin' HUEGE. Yes, HUEGE. I don't have pictures of him yet, but I will soon. I think. He's really neat-looking.

Last Friday I got an IUD. HELLz YEAH for 5 years of not having to worry about producing more offspring! It pretty much hurt, though. Well - it has been 8 years since my cervix opened up to pop out Shadow so I guess it had plenty of time to close back up. The doctor guy was totally prepared for that shit, though. He had this long tapered stick that he proceeded to force into that tiny hole until it was tiny no longer. Yeah. But, let's not forget the clamps he had to use to grab my uterus and point it the right direction so that he could see what he was doing. Let me tell ya - there's nothing quite like having your organs moved around while you're totally aware. 😳

It's cool, though. I felt PRETTY crappy that Friday, but by the next day I was up for walking around all day... you know - like you might at a Renaissance Festival. So that's what we did. Shaun, me, Shadow and Nick went to one in GA. It was pirate weekend which was neat. Nick and Shaun got Didgeridoos. I took a bunch of pictures. Shadow played some drums. Me and Shaun came back with awesome matching SUNBURNS. I might have to dedicate a whole blog to that day.

Me and Shadow had dinner with Jeni on Wednesday. She can cook some chicken! Also, her cats are AWESOME. For serious - Chaucer is beautiful and weird. Poe is a people. What more could you ask for??

Shadow's now out of school for the summer. I'm happy about that. He is, too, of course. He received 3 awards today at school... 'cause he ROCKS!

I ran over a cross-tie and got my car stuck. Nick had to jack it up so that we could pull the tie out from under the car. Yay for dumb things I do that inconvenience people! 😂

So have you heard of "The Cat Empire"? They're awesome and they really remind me of cats. Like, when I listen to the music I think of alley cats singing. Maybe that's weird, but that's what I see in my head. Their voices are very cat-like and so are the things they sing about, kind of...

I have fairy band-aids. I've never seen them before. They came from Big Lots. The only reason I even remember that I do is because I've got one on my head... ja know - because of the giant lump I grew there. 😳 They came with a fairy card... collect all 56!

I feel so energetic tonight. This morning. Whatever. And I have stuff that I could be doing to burn that energy, but I hurt my foot cleaning a rat cage earlier so I don't really want to even stand up. Of course, I will have to unless I decide to sleep in this chair. ... Decisions, decisions...

Puppy Kisses,

Blu

Rest in Peace

I chose this picture of Cleo because Shadow remembered that she was a good momma... the first thing he said when we found her was "Will her babies be ok?" (They're grown; they will.)

Goodbye, my little fat hammy. 😭

Sammy, I've dreaded this day since the day I met you. I wish you were not gone, but I know you needed the rest. Time was starting to wear on your old bones and it showed. Sleep peacefully, love.

*burps*

So I just got home... it's just me and my kiddo for now. It's nice to have him home... he's spent the night away several times this week due to spring break. I've missed him.

On the way home from PetSmart he rode in the front seat with me. Emma had just thrown up in the back so he didn't want to sit back there. We talked a lot. It was nice.

I just ordered pizza because I'm tired of being out and I've got a ton to do here. Nothing pleasant; mostly just cleaning that I've neglected all week. Oh, and the ferrets. I don't really see Friday as a great day to go out or hang out because I'm always exhausted from the week by then so that's my ferret-cleaning day. May as well get it over with so that if I have guests over during the rest of the weekend my house won't smell ferret-tacular. Don't get me wrong; I like ferret musk. But there's six in our house right now and it can be a bit overwhelming if not tended to.

My carpet looks so disgusting. It's needs a good shampooing. But I'm not doing it until the bathroom is fixed so that I can put Scooty back in there during the day. He'd pee on my clean carpet I just know.

I need to hang out with Hairy. I haven't held her in like two days. That's not cool. 😕

Anyway...

Things Blu did today:

1) Woke up and took both dogs out (at the same time 'cause I'm stoopid) because I was being nice and didn't want to make Nick get up and go out in the cold, too. Turns out it wasn't very cold, but it was the thought that counts.

2) Had a great time building a giant pen with my dad for my doggies to run around in safely. It took most of the day. I like my little daddy. 😀 He's fun to work with.

3) Came in and took the doggies out to try their new pen. Emma pooped 3 times in about a half hour's time. She hasn't done that even once since she's been here regardless of how many walks we've taken her on. Luckily, she'd only been here about a day...

4) Cleaned 3 ferret cages while ferrets ran about stealing my paper towels. The third cage wasn't even dirty, really (because it's not in use anymore... they could totally get out of it), but it still had bedding in it and I wanted it empty.

5) Totally cleaned and vacuumed the living room and Febreezed the fuck out of the carpet and sofa. You have to take those kinds of measures when you have 6 ferrets in a room, you know.

6) Brought the doggies in and tried to juggle these things, (quite successfully, I might add): loving on them, emptying the dishwasher, loading the dishwasher, and making dinner. Ta-da, I'm the fucking best.

7) Ate dinner with my little kid and chatted with Nancy-Pants then proceeded to get him ready for bed. He had to have his hair washed which always drenches me in the process somehow so then I was cold and changed shirts. After a not-nearly-long-enough sit on the sofa I removed my kid from the shower, waited for him to brush his teeth, and then with Emma's aid, tucked him into bed.

8) Folded two or three loads of laundry while hanging out with Nancy-Pants.

9) Caught up on some emails since I haven't been on the computer much today and then starting writing this.

The End.

Speaking of...

Geez, where to begin?? How about with:

Today was hectic, (but I'm not complaining). We went to work today and that was fine. Then I went to PetSmart to do my Saturday routine of cleaning up and caring for the kitties that are there waiting to find homes and that was more eventful than usual. There was a cat named Snickers who was kind of new there. She is SO pretty. She's Siamese with long hair and the most beautiful BLUE eyes I've ever seen on a cat. She acted a little weird when she first got out to stretch and play, but I think that's probably because she's not used to the new place yet. Then there was Cotton who's a thick white man cat. He's beautiful and has a ton of personality to boot. Really pretty green eyes, also. Today when I let him out to clean his little kitty apartment he kept getting back in there and playing with my cleaning supplies and swatting my hands and stuff. It was so cute. 😊 When he wasn't busy playing with me he was loving on me... you know how cats do - with their faces all over you and purring. I LOVE THAT. 😍 It makes me feel all gooey.

Then I had a little surprise. There was another new kitty named Adrian. I can't remember if that one was male or female, but whatever. It was really shy at first seeing as how it was new, also. But you just give me a few minutes on the ears and that seems to loosen them right up. 😉 So I was petting Adrian trying to get it at ease enough to come out of it's cage and after a moment it got up and walked toward me. It walked straight through it's litter box and climbed up the front of me (literally), all the while the litter from it's paws going all down my shirt. Ehh, I didn't care. I also didn't care when it slipped and instinctively dug a claw into my neck drawing a little blood. I kept petting it. Those babies don't get all the loving they deserve. It was so sweet... it was walking back and forth on my shoulders while I awkwardly reached back to pet it... it would nuzzle my face and drool on my cheek and stuff. 😍 Anyway, it stayed on my shoulders for a good 15 minutes, at least, before I decided I had to go ahead and get back to work. It seemed really angry when Nick got it off me. 😞 Poor kitty... I wanted it to stay, too. ... I love cats. If I could have any I can think of a few I'd adopt right off.

Speaking of adopting... yeah, we might be sort of thinking of adopting a dog I fell in love with... She's gorgeous. Nick has never met her, but he's seen pics of her. I think he'd like her a lot in person so we're going to set it up where he can meet her. I guess if she passes the Nick test then she'll move on to the Scooter test... and if she passes then we'll make a decision. I'm surprised Nick would even kind of consider this, (I haven't even been bugging him about it, I don't think), but I'm really excited. We really don't need any more animals, but I feel terrible for Scooty. He seems so lonely. And she needs a home. (She's in a foster home right now so I should say, rather, that she needs a permanent home).

Speaking of foster homes: We got two ferrets that we're fostering for a friend today. I think we're supposed to pick up a third tomorrow... that's all fine with me. I've never fostered an animal before so I would imagine that it would be hard to give them up after a while, but at the same time I know deep down that they're not mine so maybe that will prevent me from getting too attached. Plus, they're going to an awesome home where they'll be loved and well cared-for so at least I know they'll be taken care of. That seems like it would make things easier, (the peace of mind, that is.)

After we picked up the ferrets we determined that they desperately needed a nail trim. So I did it. In fact, I trimmed all the ferrets nails today, plus Scooters, and his foot fur. Scoot-Scoot can't walk when he's on a slick floor because of all the hair on his feet - he slides around and while it's hilarious it's probably not good for him. Plus, he chews it a lot so I'm guessing it bothers him to have so much there. Anyhoo, I felt proud after I groomed everyone. I had fun and no one got hurt. What more can you ask for??

Speaking of having fun we got a Wii today. Speaking of what more you could ask for, we had the most delicious dessert at IHOP yesterday. It was a cheesecake banana crepe with caramel and whipped cream on top and ice cream on the side. It was TO-DIE-FOR, which, as bad as it probably was for me just might happen. But I hope not. 😁 Anyway, that's it. I'm off to watch "28 Days Later" with the Nick in my life. ❤ to you!

Putting my heart out there once again...

but it's ok. I am becoming so attached to Sammy... she's the eldest of the ferrets we got this past weekend. She's also the one who had cancer. As I mentioned before she's very small and I don't know if that has anything to do with her previously being sick. Luckily, the people who gave her to us said that she was doing fine (health-wise) right now - she tends to sleep a lot.

When I let them all out to play the other two take off running and sneaking and playing together... and Sammy just walks around investigating the environment, mostly. Sometimes if she finds something that catches her interest she'll play for a minute... last night she found a ball with a bell in it and pushed it around with her nose for a while; she also likes to climb up on the couch in hopes of getting to the end table or just to play in the blankets. She still has a little skip in her step, though - don't get me wrong. She doesn't tend to play much with the other ferrets unless one of them harass her into it, though.

Speaking of harassing her, Static (her housemate from her previous owners) harasses her endlessly. The previous owners said that they played together a lot, but I don't know if that's such a good thing. He gets her by the back of her head, (or even her face sometimes), and twists and drags her around. Sometimes she'll make sounds and that's when I've started intervening. I'm not really sure what's considered "normal" for those two (but I think I might ask soon). Luckily, since Stella's so young she can handle Static and his roughhousing and it probably gives li'l Sammy a break. But I do feel bad for her. It seems to take a lot out of her to try to fight him off, (especially with him being about twice her size). Usually, when I "rescue" her she'll let me hold her for a few minutes while she recuperates and sometimes she'll even love on my cheek while I'm doing so.

*sigh* I'm already dreading the day she leaves us, though I have no idea when that might be. I went in Critter's yesterday and they had to put one of their ferrets to sleep because his cancer came back. I, uh... I don't really know where I'm going with this. But I hope she knows she's loved.

Their names are Sammy and Static...

Sammy is an older female (for a ferret)... 4 or 5 years, I think. She has thin-ish fur and her tail is almost bald. That's not due to her age... She fought cancer and won and is just growing her fur back (if I'm not mistaken she went completely bald). She's a sweet little lady and I feel like me and her have sort of bonded. She's smaller than other grown ferrets; possibly something to do with when she was sick. If not, well... perhaps that's just something me and her have in common. 😍

Static is a young male - rambunctious and playful - as most ferrets are. He's been friends with Sammy for most of his life and his preferred means to get from place to place is rolling. 😂  Also, he tends to roll when he's playing with the other ferrets... maybe he's just pretending to be a crocodile, LOL. Either way, he's hilarious to watch. 😁

These are our new family members, from a little girl who cares much about their well being. Today was bittersweet - it was really hard to take them even though the family could no longer keep them and we were very excited to have them. Life sure is crazy sometimes.

Her name is Stella...

and she's a doll. Her and Nick seem to have hit it off and I think she likes me pretty well, too. She likes to give kisses and lovings and she's just sweet as can be. Scooty seems a bit... distressed... since her arrival, but I think after a few days things will smooth out. He's never been around a ferret before and he's acting much the same way as he did when he first met the hedgehog. It must be their strong odor... he doesn't seem at all bothered by anyone else... except the sugar gliders when they started barking last night. (Yes, gliders bark on occasion... little tiny barks - like baby puppies. It's so cute!) 😍 But anyway, here are a few pics of our newest family member. 😁

She'd just woken up...

Here's a few of her and the Nick-Daddy...

She is SO kissing him in this picture!

Goofing off... 😁

"Play with me!"

Looking sweet. 😍

Can you believe someone didn't want her?! She was in two other homes (that we know of) before she came to us. I can't imagine not loving her. *sigh*