Will someone please bring me a space heater??

Seriously, (I'm serious). I'm sick of freezing my ass off. I'm like ice. And I'm angry about it. GRRR!

I just hurt my tongue with butterscotch. 😞

This morning Hairy bit me. It didn't hurt or anything. I think she's become the toll-keeper of her cage. No one shall pass without giving her a treat (that's what I normally do first thing - give her a yummy). 😊 I'm sure it was accidental... she probably thought I had something in my hand for her. I'm not mad.

In other ratty news this morning Minuit accepted food from my hand for the first time. 😁😁😁

Saturday we went by CD Cellar. I found a tick on me in there and promptly freaked out. 😨 Luckily it was not stuck in.

I'm sleepy.

And I love you.

sqeebles

That's the sound my new little ratty makes. She sure is a talkative little lady. I was holding her last night and she pretty much didn't stop talking the whole time - in fact she was doing it before I even picked her up. She didn't sound distressed or anything - just like she might've had something to say. I wonder what it was...

Minuit

So I finally got Hairy a friend. Her name is Minuit which is French for midnight. She's albino, but she has some darker patches of fur that would've been black had she not been albino. She's a pretty lil thing... the only one in the store like her. 😁

When I first put her and Hairy together I don't think they were getting along too well. So they both got a bath and then rubbed with vanilla extract so that they'd smell the same. That made them get along better. Minuit DEFINITELY needed a bath. She was SO dirty (and she smelled terrible, too). But now they both smell quite yummy.

(Btw... Hairy does NOT like getting bathed. She fought me the whole time. But Minuit just sat there after a moment and let me wash her little face and tail and all her fur. She was SO good!)

Anyway, so here's some pictures. 😊

"Hello!"

"I'm Minuit. Who are you??"

Hairy's a camera whore. 😂

The things I have to say:

First of all:  Thanks to everyone who sent me Happy Easter comments. I haven't been on the internets much this weekend (you'll understand why in a moment...), but I hope you all had a good day, too.

Nick took me out to Fuji one evening this weekend... that's never really been my thing, but the food was good. (Yes, I actually found something I like - I'm a terribly picky eater). Perhaps it will be my thing eventually. I tried eel (I think). Tastes like watermelon (seriously, it did). We were joined by the lovely Amber and Jerry which was fun.

Our floor is looking quite sexy. We spent all weekend on it (aside from a short break to visit family and let Shadow hunt eggs) so it should look nice. Thanks an extra lot to Jerry and Amber for helping out... we SO needed someone with skillz (Jerry) working with us, and Amber kept me sane. Ehh... it's been hectic. Lots of stress and pressure to get things done. (Our next projects probably won't be so stressful, but going a day and a half without a toilet or sink will stress you OUT). However, I did find out one amusing fact: I can almost fill up a regular sized KFC cup with urine first thing in the morning. Haha, TMI right out of nowhere! You weren't expecting that, were ya?

Also, more about the floor. The bathroom is done in white and wood, mostly. It looked pretty "old lady" in there. But the new floor is SEVERIOUSLY changing all that and somehow makes it look a bit bigger, too. I can't wait to see the finished product (it's not a look I've seen done elsewhere...) I will DEFINITELY be posting pics when we're done. Woohoo! And also I think we've pretty much decided that most of the carpet in the house is going to have to go. It's just so gross. (Not just ours because it needs shampooing, but all carpet. It's like socks you almost never wash.) Ugh.

Well, thank goodness I didn't blog. I worked all my frustrations out on the floor, I do believe. I may still fill you in laters... (I hate to be left hanging so I try not to do that to others). Anyway, that's it for now!

Lap dog

Every time I sit down...

Disconnected

That's what I feel. That's what I don't want to be. Here's a question: Why is there so fucking much to living?? Why does there have to be?? There doesn't. Whoever the fuck thought it was a good idea to do anything more than grow your own fucking food and sit on the porch with your family was a moron. You get so caught up in everything else... taking care of everything else - that you find yourself disconnected from the things that you love... the reasons that you bust your ass in the first place. It's stupid. You take care of the ones you love in so many other ways that you neglect the important parts. Then you realize it and hate yourself.

Society today sucks. I can't wait for the changes. If you don't know what I'm talking about, well, don't worry - neither do I. I just know it's coming. Things can't go on like this forever. I'm starting to feel certain that I'll be alive for the time when things do change and whatever it is it will be a welcome break. Fuck all this working shit. My Shadow's no longer my Shadow - not even on the sunny days because I'm stuck in a cold gray office 40 hours per week. I didn't even take one day off while he was out on spring break to hang with him. I regret that. Nick was not feeling well today and I wanted nothing more than to stay home and comfort him. When he softly kissed my cheek goodbye this morning I almost would've rather died than have to walk away.

I've noticed that I do my most "profound" thinking first thing in the morning... either that or I'm still half asleep and dreaming. This morning as I poured my Coke over ice I wondered to myself if I was feeling sort of the way an alcoholic does... wanting that first sip, knowing it will somehow help me through the day. Feeling disconnected, pouring away.

So when our father's from another planet come back to enslave us I really hope they're kind enough to give us a porch and a deck of cards. Keep us in our primitive little tribes, or families. Let us play cards after a hard days work if we've earned it. Wouldn't it be nice? Not have to worry about anything else? Just do what's necessary to live and spend time with the ones who matter?? I think it would be great. THAT would be the life. I feel that I should be preparing for whatever may come. Learn how to NOT kill plants. I can take care of my animals, but I have NO green thumb, whatsoever. Learn to can and freeze food - just in case.

I don't know what it's going to be like. With global warming hopefully the weather will be pleasant in the winter. I don't like being cold and I don't know if there will be electricity. The need to get a fence is more urgent than ever to keep animals and other people from stealing out of the garden I will have. I don't know if people will come together or fight each other to survive. So I may need a gun. Maybe Shadow will have reached his adult size by the time things change so that we won't have to worry about getting him bigger clothes all the time. Yes, if things change drastically he's staying with me for as long as he wants to. Hopefully, it will be necessary to stick together and take care of each other. That's my place in life anyway. I'm never happier than when I'm caring for another. Speaking of Shadow, though, what about birth control?? I wonder how we'll do that... if clinic's will be functional. Who knows?? It's scary, but exhilarating. I can't wait. I'm just biding my time and waiting for something better.

Some days, like today, I feel like I should just say, "Fuck it all. I do what I want." And honestly I feel like we should all be able to. What's the deal with sacrificing your sanity for "modern conveniences"? It's stupid. And it's not convenient at all. You can't just decide to no longer work and not have electricity. You can't choose to live that way. That shit will get your kids taken from you in a heartbeat. Nobody seems to realize or care, but WE, AS INDIVIDUALS, DON'T HAVE A CHOICE anymore. That's why people become hobos and shit. At least some of them. They're tired of it all. And I can't blame them. The hobos are definitely gonna survive when things change. You better be nice to them now 'cause they'll be a time when they might need to have mercy on you. Think about THAT.

I'm done.

*burps*

So I just got home... it's just me and my kiddo for now. It's nice to have him home... he's spent the night away several times this week due to spring break. I've missed him.

On the way home from PetSmart he rode in the front seat with me. Emma had just thrown up in the back so he didn't want to sit back there. We talked a lot. It was nice.

I just ordered pizza because I'm tired of being out and I've got a ton to do here. Nothing pleasant; mostly just cleaning that I've neglected all week. Oh, and the ferrets. I don't really see Friday as a great day to go out or hang out because I'm always exhausted from the week by then so that's my ferret-cleaning day. May as well get it over with so that if I have guests over during the rest of the weekend my house won't smell ferret-tacular. Don't get me wrong; I like ferret musk. But there's six in our house right now and it can be a bit overwhelming if not tended to.

My carpet looks so disgusting. It's needs a good shampooing. But I'm not doing it until the bathroom is fixed so that I can put Scooty back in there during the day. He'd pee on my clean carpet I just know.

I need to hang out with Hairy. I haven't held her in like two days. That's not cool. 😕

Anyway...