When I finally learn to accept...

When I finally learn to accept that what I think doesn't matter - especially to those who are in charge of my child during the day at school - then I'll be ok.  When I finally stop struggling to do things that single broke-ass moms shouldn't do... like you know - keep promises to my kid to take him places - then I'll find happiness.  I'm just trying to be too good for my own good.  I need to just sit back, realize that I'm shit, and just be it.  Then all will be right with the world.  Fuck everything right now.  I even hate my nails.

Today...

Today started off a little late, but other than that it was ok.  It ended with me being really angry for the second time this week.  Fuck everything - I'm going to go paint my nails.  ANGRILY.

This is the first time I've used one of my water decals.

This is the first time I've used one of my water decals. They are not the same as nail tattoos. Actually, for me they were MUCH easier because you can move it around after you put it on, unlike with a tattoo. With a tattoo if you're off, you're just off - no adjusting those. Btw, I think my nails look black in the photo, but they are just a REALLY dark green. REALLY REALLY dark. But the feather is also a very dark green, so I thought it kind of worked together. Just one bright nail this time. 🙂

My thoughts for the night...

Today at our monthly Free-Thought meet-up the presentation was on women's rights and birth control.  That bill that some people want to have passed that would force women seeking abortions to have that awful vaginal wand thing done sounds really terrible.  The lady who did the presentation also volunteers as an escort at Planned Parenthood and she had some really sad things to say.  Like that the protesters can physically assault them, and that the cops just call it harassment, and nothing gets done to stop it - even with video evidence.  Like that she's escorted young (think 12 year old) rape victims to get abortions and had people do nasty things to try to keep them from going in.

To anyone who is supporting that bill:  Put yourself in someone else's shoes.  Think of the horror of being raped, the reality that you really have no way to care for a child you didn't want, a big scary person or group of people harassing (and quite possibly assaulting) you, and then the state wants to start imposing rape with a plastic wand and shaming right on top of all of that.  I know that that is not the circumstance for everyone, but it does happen.  I am infuriated and sad to know that ANYONE - any single person or any government body thinks they have any business making such personal and hard choices harder for anyone.  We really need to stop this.

Damn.

Damn.  I thought Shadow was on spring break starting tomorrow so I just let him stay up until 11.  Spring break is not right now so I was totally wrong.  Man, I'm the best mom EVER.  😂😂😂  But, he's not complaining (right now, anyway).  😛

For the first time in my life...

For the first time in my life I went to a restaurant today (or rather, yesterday - St. Patrick's day) and ordered an alcoholic beverage.  I got a mudslide - for anyone who was curious.  Can't see myself doing that again anytime in the near future.  My guts burned for a couple of hours and I was angry for a while.  Got a headache and just wanted to sleep.  I think I'll stick to only tasting some of Shaun's drinks.  I just don't get why folks love alcohol so much.  It tasted ok, but in hindsight I would have been just as happy with a nice slice of Tiramisu - and probably quite a bit less unhappy afterwards.  Well, now I know.

How to get your floor mopped for free:

How to get your floor mopped for free:  Dump all of your fish food out in the floor, let the cats and Faith scatter it, and then bring Lowrider in to lick it up.  Now I know.  😂😂😂