Ok, I know that my last like, 12 posts have been me whining...

Ok, I know that my last like, 12 posts have been me whining about boring health stuff and I apologize, but this one isn't gonna be much different.

I have a question, though.

Is it possible that I've been in a small amount of pain for a long time without realizing it?  I always thought I had a pretty high threshold, but it sounds crazy to me that I wouldn't even notice / acknowledge it.

Twice this weekend I've gone to places where I had to walk on hard floors.  Once, the mall (crazy, I know!) and twice I've been in Wal-Mart.  I don't think that either time I was grumpy or angry that I was there.  Granted, I was at the mall seeing an awesome girl I never really get to see, but there is usually no reason for me to not be angry that I'm in a Wal-Mart.  LOL

I don't think I'd realized it, but standing around in places had begun to bother me.  I'm not a shopping kind of girl (unless it's the rare occasion I'm looking at nail polish outside of the internet), but for the last few years I've HATED to go anywhere that I might have to stand around (such as Wal-Mart or Best Buy.  Shaun is a shopper, while I, on the other hand, usually know exactly what I'm there for and run through to get it.)  I also noticed when thinking back that if I DID have to wait on him I'd become one of those people who sat on shelves or in the floors.  I'm not lazy.  It's not like I can't freaking stand up.  But I think I was in some sort of discomfort that maybe wasn't registering as pain.

Does that happen?  Because when I went to Wal-Mart last night it's not like I was super excited to be there, but I felt ok.  Like, weirdly, surprisingly, physically ok.  There have been a few other instances the last couple of days where I felt the same.  It's like the absence of discomfort has made me realize that it was there in the first place.  Can discomfort / pain come on so gradually that it's just there without you knowing?

I feel so baffled right now.  Y'all don't even know.  I always thought I was so in tune with myself.  😳

So far I'm a little riled today from the steroids, but not majorly.  Still hungry like a horse.  Shaun is taking me to a buffet.  I will try not to bite his head off for him being so nice to me.  LOL  I did sleep last night - a lot.  I feel rested, but I am majorly lacking motivation to do anything, though I feel sort of energetic.  Not sure if that's the pills or if my body needs to rest.  So much to figure out!  😕

Later, peeps.  Food time!  😃

It has been a weird day.

It has been a weird day.  My body and my brain are not in sync.  There have been times I felt like exercising, yet I would fall asleep. There was a time I was so drowsy on the couch, but I couldn't sleep because my arms and legs felt buck wild. I'm not a super fan of this weirdness. 😕

My biggest accomplishment today had to have been the amount of food I've eaten. It was a ridiculous amount and I could still eat more. I'm sure I will regret that soon.

I'm in my bed in hopes that I can sleep. I feel drowsy with no super wild body parts at the moment. Wish me luck. ❤

I feel crazy cranky wild.

I feel crazy cranky wild. Physically mostly ok-ish, but I think these pills are making me mentally or emotionally JACKED UP.  I'm an unpleasant beast right now. 😳

What happens when I'm done with the pills?  I don't think they intend to keep me on them. Just wondering what the next step is...

It's been a weird day.

It's been a weird day.  Not really bad, but definitely weird.

I slept for about 8 hours last night.  It was lovely.   Dogs woke me up around 9:30, so I took care of all the kids, ate, and then took my first two pills.  Sat on the couch like a knot on a log - watching Andy Griffith and messaging my besties.  Was super pleasantly surprised that I haven't felt like barfing, though my stomach has felt a little off.  I guess that's normal and ok.

Don't know if my body just needed the rest or if it was the pills or what, but I fell asleep for a few more hours.  Woke up about 30 minutes ago.  Usually that much sleep gives me a sleep hangover, but not today.

I feel weird.  Body isn't TOO sore, skin is still nice like "Whoa."  A little jeebly in my guts.  Still having random shooty pains, but those aren't so bad.  Better than constant pain.  At least these are like little surprises.  LOL

About to eat and get the 2nd pair of pills down me.  Maybe after that I can stay awake for a while.

Heard from the doctor's office today.

Heard from the doctor's office today. They want me to come back either Thursday or Monday after I finish my steroid pills. They said we could talk and run some tests to see about doing a referral for me. So, I guess that is my plan for now.

Today I have felt ok. My lower back and thigh pain have mostly faded. My knees and hips are better than they've been in a long time. Even though it's chilly this evening my whole body isn't seized up and sore. That's amazing. 

The only complaint I have is slight back soreness and some random occasional shooty pains. I can live with that.

I have been freaking myself out all day with my skin. It is SO SOFT. My hair, too. I can't stop petting myself. When you've lived with sore, flaky, rough skin for so long - feeling like you have fresh soft baby skin suddenly is mind - blowing. Like, in a big way. I wish you could all touch my face right now, but that would gross me out. LOL

Anyway. Will start my steroid pills tomorrow and hope that goes ok.

So far today I have taken a nice hot shower.

Well, my dogs woke me up earlier than I'm used to and I couldn't get back to sleep.  I did sleep most of the night, though, so yay for that.  I needed it.

So far today I have taken a nice hot shower.  I used my medicated shampoo, even though my head wasn't really itchy or anything.  With the cold weather upon us I don't want to take any chances.  My psoriasis always worsens in the winter, so I figured I should stay on top of it.

This is probably super gross, but while I was in the shower I think I washed off 20 layers of face.  I try not to scratch my face even when it itches, but I often fail.  After the shot the other day either it stopped bothering me or I was too busy hurting to care about it, so (since psoriasis basically just causes you to produce extra skin all the time) I had A LOT of extra skin just hanging out on my face.

Yeah, also probably super gross to most of you - I hadn't washed my face since Wednesday.  I felt too bad, and it wasn't a priority, and over-washing with a skin condition often worsens things.  ON THE BRIGHT SIDE my face looks pretty much like a regular face today.  🙂  There was a patch of psoriasis on my chin that was so inflamed two weeks ago at the craft show in Alpine that a lady thought I was bleeding.  You can barely see it now - so that's something!

After my shower I put some of the medicated crème on some of my other spots.  Didn't do all of them because I want to see if it does anything or not.  Also wanted to make sure it doesn't like, chemical burn me or anything like that.  I've had that happen before, so I started small this time.

So, skin is feeling a lot better.  Yay for that!  Bones and muscles... not 100% (I'm still sore), but MUCH improved from yesterday so far.  I don't hate life yet today, so that's a really nice feeling.  LOL  Probably doesn't hurt that it's Friday, either.  I'm excited about getting paid and excited to have the weekend off.

I have decided that I will start my steroid pills tomorrow in case they do make me sick.  My boss is setting up for Winter Market (which starts later today), so she won't be in the office much if at all and I have some things that need to be done TODAY.  If I'm not functional that will be a problem, so I'll just wait.  I don't think it will hurt much to give it another day.  Doc didn't even tell me I was getting pills or that I should start them immediately, so it doesn't feel like a big deal.  If I'm doing it wrong, well, that's on him for being non-communicate-y.  I'm not going to worry about it.

So, Happy Friday, people.  I hope it's a good one for all of us!  ❤

CAN. NOT. WIN.

Sat on the couch with Shaun.  Starting dozing.  Realized I might be able to sleep tonight, so I got up and took care of the furkids.  Now I've got a killer headache.

CAN. NOT. WIN.