On a break in Trig...

On a break in Trig. Feeling better about it than I did before. THANK GOODNESS! 😃

Heading to Trig momentarily. But so far, this day has SUCKED.

Heading to Trig momentarily.  But so far, this day has SUCKED.

I have enjoyed most of my classes since starting school last year and I gotta say that Biology is interesting, but I almost LOST IT in class today.  First of all, it's like a 3 hour class.  Second, I have a tough teacher.  And I 100% understand that I'm in college and shouldn't expect easy tests and have someone hold my hand, but there was so much information coming at me today that my head LEGIT felt swimmy and I just zoned out.  I couldn't do it anymore.  I had to sit in my car and cry before work today.

Look.  The teacher doesn't do study guides or multiple choice.  We have fill-ins with no word banks and essay questions on the test.  It would be one thing entirely if I knew EXACTLY what to study, but I have like 12 pages of notes SO FAR and a test coming on Monday.  I DO NOT feel prepared or like I possibly even could be.

Trig is hard so far, too.  Tonight is my 2nd class so maybe it will get better.  History doesn't come easily - I have to study it A LOT to make it stick.  So I feel like with Biology this is too much at the moment.  I'm talking to my adviser tomorrow to see what my options are.  I think I would be a nutcase if I tried to take all 3 of these classes together right now. There are easier Biology teachers out there and it's not like I'm going into nursing so at the moment even though I feel like a failure for thinking about dropping a class and looking for an easier route I kind of also feel more like it's not worth it to stress myself out like this.  Like, my scalp is numb and my hair hurts.  I am not in a good place.  I hate it when I feel this way.  🙁

Wish me luck tonight.  We have a quiz already.  Woo!  😕

I'm getting less sleep than I want tonight...

I'm getting less sleep than I want tonight, but I've been totally lazy all day. I didn't even do homework because when I looked at it I realized that we weren't there yet. I also didn't do my nails. 

What I did do was hang with my guys and ani-pals on the couch most of the day... and eat. I washed a few loads of laundry, but that's about all I can say for myself. 

Monday is my long day so I'm off to get some sleep. I'm SO not ready for the weekend to be over. 😕

I've been mostly useless today.

I've been mostly useless today.  For no good reason, which makes it even worse.  😂

I got the animals fed.  I did my taxes.  I went to Wal-Mart and bought Ghirardelli Dark Chocolate Brownie Mix.  I swear I thought that frozen brownies were a thing, (like frozen cookies definitely are), but I could not find any.  I loaded the dishwasher, did ONE sad little load of laundry, made tea, brownies, and mozzarella sticks, and finished one section of Trig homework.

... That sounds like a lot more than it felt like.  Weird.  😵

I'm about to clean my litter boxes and call it a night.  I still need to finish another section of Trig homework tomorrow and study other stuff if I can, but I think I'll have time.

I kind of desperately want to fight sleep like an angry toddler.  It would be super fun to hang out and do my nails.  But I need to not screw my schedule totally up so I'm trying to be good.  Maybe if I get everything else done that I want to I can reward myself with nails tomorrow.  I was super pumped to find that the last ones I did hung in there until Friday.  😃

Goodnight, Internet land!

Just spent 2 hours making flash cards for Biology and History.

Just spent 2 hours making flash cards for Biology and History.  I downloaded an app so I can have them with me ALL THE TIMES on my phone.  I'm gonna get this stuff into my brain one way or the other.  Writing it / typing it / looking at it often will help.

I spent an hour or so looking at math videos online yesterday.  I think that helped.  Everything I looked at that was Trig was WAYYY past where we are at the moment.  When I Googled "triangle" videos that was better.  I guess we're doing the very basics and that I'm trying to make my homework harder than it has to be.  😂  I just need to CALM DOWN.

I think that since the weather sucks this weekend I'll probably not leave the house so I'll have plenty of time to study and feel ok about what I'm doing.  So that's my very interesting and totally not nerdy plan for the weekend.  😝  I hope everyone stays safe and warm!

I am trying to not freak out just yet...

Ok.  I am trying to not freak out just yet, but I am literally afraid of what this semester holds.  I am already worried that I might be in over my head.  The thought of dropping a class has, (for the first time since I started), crossed my mind.  🙁

I feel pretty good in History, but in Biology the teacher doesn't do study guides or word banks or multiple choice on tests.  I know, I know - guess it's time to grow up, but seriously I'm worried about my ability to just recall stuff out of my head.  I've been asterisking my notes every time she says "That's on your test." so I can try to remember everything about it.  😳

I sat down and did some of my Trig homework tonight.  DUDE.  It looks fun and I feel like maybe I could like it, but the book is nothing like my Algebra books were.  In Algebra we were doing problems in class then our homework would be basically the same problems with different numbers so we could get used to the steps of the problem.

Trig?  Trig so far is like, "Hey, this is the information you have.  Now figure out this other shit with what I just said."  There are some triangle rules, which help... but some problems I have solved with just subtraction and division and I'm just like, "Am I doing this right?"  I am getting the same answer as what is in the back of the book, but I'm wondering if there is some formula I'm not following.

I mean on the one hand it's like I'm making my own Algebra problems with triangles and that's pretty cool, but on the other hand I'm worried that I'm missing something and I don't want to do that.  I guess I'm just gonna get through it as best I can and see if the teacher can give me any pointers on Monday.

Anyway.  Heading to bed.  Y'all wish me luck.  Or if you know anything about Trig - soothe my brain, please.  I just want to do ok.

I helped my first student with Algebra today.

Today was pretty good.  I slept last night and then ACTUALLY felt like I slept when I woke up today.  Woohoo for that!  😃

I helped my first student with Algebra today.  It was fun, but I was nervous and I had to think about stuff more than I wish I did.  I can do a lot of things, but figuring out how to tell other people to do it is less easy.  Maybe I'll get better at that the more I do it.  I could hear the other math tutor talking to her student and she sounded like she'd been teaching for years!

Regardless, she said that I helped her and that was the whole point so that was awesome.  😃  I see her again on Thursday.  😃