We just got home from the vet. Lowrider has passed away.

We just got home from the vet.  Lowrider has passed away.

When I was getting ready for bed I was making sure all the dogs were in, but she wasn't which was very unlike her.  I went outside looking for her and I found her hiding.  Her stomach looked huge.  I immediately thought "Oh fuck, bloat."

I called AMC and was told that our choices, (if it actually was bloat), were euthanasia or a $1500 - $3000 surgery.  Since I have so little money I decided to consult our regular vet.  He talked me down and told me that her breed didn't get bloat and that she probably ate something she shouldn't have and that if that was the case she'd be ok until the morning.  I didn't think I was being overly dramatic or paranoid, but knowing how crazy I get about my animals I second-guessed myself and I'm sure I wanted to believe him.  I really wanted him to meet me but he wasn't into that.  He told me I could give her an enema - which we did, but it didn't help.  By the time I realized that she was not going to be ok it was basically too late.  We rushed her to AMC and they helped her go peacefully.

I have regrets.  I am sad.  And I will miss my noisy, short-legged girl and her "Sandy Shuffle."  Rest in Peace, sweet old girl.  ❤

I really haven't had the time or energy to complain about my health lately...

I really haven't had the time or energy to complain about my health lately, but it hasn't been great.  I left history class with a migraine coming on.  Barely made it through without barfing.  Cried all the way home because my head hurt so bad.  Excedrin Migraine and a nap to the rescue.  I don't feel great now, but I'm functional.  About to get ready to head to work.

I think today was the last straw.  I've been debating on not taking Methotrexate for a while because the side effects seem to be getting worse and worse - not better.  For anyone who doesn't know what I'm talking about it's a low-grade chemo drug that I take for my autoimmune arthritis.  Yeah - I can walk, but everything else sucks right now.  The headaches, the nausea, the painful sores on my skin and in my mouth that take forever to heal.  My lungs taste horrible.  I feel like I have a sick smoker's breath and I don't even smoke.  I wouldn't be surprised if my hair started falling out soon.  I'm on folic acid to combat the side effects, but it's just not enough.  And all that has nothing on the fatigue that keeps me down for a few days after taking it.  I'm kind of feeling like I'd rather take a ton of NSAID's and antacids than deal with all this.  If nothing else I think my body needs a break.  So I'm officially skipping my meds today.  I might regret it or I might not.  But I can't keep on like this right now.  🙁

Brownian Motion is when the cells vibrate.

Had to get the Facebook app to share this. Boo. Maybe it's better than the last time I had it. We'll see.

Anyway. Brownian Motion is when the cells vibrate. You see it better after the video gets dark. Very interesting!

Edited to add:  I totally forgot that Facebook wrecks the quality. This isn't really worth watching on here. 🙁

Biology lab was really neat today.

Biology lab was really neat today. Pics through microscope below! 🙂 

I have a really cool video of Brownian Motion that I will try to post later. 😃

Cheek Cell

Onion Skin with Blue Dye

Bacteria

Human Blood Cells

Plant Leaf

Potato with Iodine

It turns out Storm's home fell through...

It turns out Storm's home fell through so he's just a foster now.  That's not the end of the world - he's a great-looking guy and a good boy, but he is getting really bored here.  🙁

I came home this evening from class to hear SO MUCH NOISE in the dog's room.  Went to see what was up and mister was throwing the water bowls around (giant horse bowls from Pickette's, like, 12" in diameter) and playing with them (stepping in them, dragging them across the room, flipping them over, pushing them, barking and growling at them, etc.) - water be damned.  😂  Thankfully there isn't too much that can be hurt by dogs or water in that room, but I feel really bad for him.  None of my dogs will play and every toy I get for him he destroys.  He needs an outlet for his energy, seriously.  He is a great guy and he is bored.  He is not bad for entertaining himself, so please understand that.

I need help finding him a home.  A good one.  Even though things are getting a little hairy with his energy levels I don't want to send him back to the shelter.  Applications for him will be taken by Cheaha Regional Humane Society, Inc.  If you know anyone awesome who would take great care of him send them there for the app.  It's not up to me.

Also, I hate to ask for things, but I'm gonna:  If anyone is up for buying him toys or bones or anything like that I'm sure he'd appreciate it.  He goes through everything I buy him at lightening speed.  I cannot keep up financially with his toy needs.  😂

Thanks in advance!  ❤

This weekend has been a mixed bag.

This weekend has been a mixed bag.  I spent too much time being so stressed out over everything that I needed to do that I didn't do anything, which sucked.  That's a very negative loop to be stuck in.  🙁  Making things worse - I took my Methotrexate on Thursday which makes me really tired and brain-foggy so basically nothing got done on Thursday or Friday.  I did very little homework on Saturday, but made a lot of progress on my Trig today (Sunday), even though I had to stop for a nap.  I didn't touch Biology at all, but I did work on History since I have a test coming up Tuesday.

Highlight of the weekend was seeing some friends that don't live close to me anymore.  Low point of the weekend was that one of our parakeets died today despite all of my efforts to nurse her and make her better.  Rest in Peace, Sky.  ❤

I promised Booka a bath since he's chewed up a raw spot above his tail despite his Prednisone.  So I'm about to get off here, wash a dog, then wash myself, and call it a night.  I've got an ass-ton of notifications piled up again, but I can't check them all tonight.  Maybe tomorrow.  I hope the weekend went a little easier on y'all.

Currently re-evaluating my life choices over here.

Currently re-evaluating my life choices over here.  I'm home from work early so I can get to the millions of homeworks I have.  I'm tired - as I have been from the very shitty start of this stupid week.  All I want to do is eat chocolate truffles and nap.  And maybe even shower and cry.  I guess it doesn't matter at this point.

For some crazy reason all of my friends think I can do all the things and while I appreciate that I legit feel like I am in over my head this semester.  Trig is hard-ish - at least the amount of work I have to put in is a lot.  Biology is insane - the class after the test I took 6 pages of new notes and while it's not ALL foreign it's stuff that's also gonna take some effort to remember.  I also have History, which isn't usually bad, but with two hard classes everything feels like too much right now.

Since dropping anything isn't an option yet I feel like if I have to stay in until 60% of the semester is over I'd rather just get it over with and not have to backtrack any.  If I come out with two B's I'll still have my 3.5, but I was hoping to save B's for when things are REALLY harder.  I don't know.

I'm just really not happy at the moment.  I have like zero free time.  I can't do anything really fun like even paint my nails or make jewelry or hang with the animals.  I feel like I haven't ACTUALLY spent time with Shaun in over a year.  🙁  I do see Shadow because he's here all the time, but I've been leaning on him harder than usual for help around the house.

All I can say is that this school stuff had better be worth it one day.  I don't even know what I will do if this doesn't pay off.

Anyway.  I have to go do something productive now.  As usual.  🙁