As I'm sure most of you know by now it's been a very tough week, but...

As I'm sure most of you know by now it's been a very tough week, but I'm finally starting to feel a sense of "normal" creeping back in.  Not "normal" enough to buy nail polish today, but normal enough to look at it.  LOL  Sally's was having a great sale, but my heart just wasn't in it.  Shaun ended up buying me 3 polishes - he got one for himself.  There was a BOGO on FingerPaints Nail Color, so that was pretty awesome.  🙂

I used one of my new polishes called Ink-Ognito on my middle finger and also on the decal that is on my ring finger.  I haven't had time this past year with work and school to really try this before, but I've wanted so badly to successfully make my own nail decals using my stamper and just nail polish.

As much of a mess as this might appear to be it actually turned out pretty amazing after clean-up and topcoat.  I'll post a nice photo tomorrow when I get into better lighting with a real camera.  LOL  I just thought this looked kind of neat and I was really happy that I was up for taking a few hours to just do something for myself - for no other reason than that I wanted to.  I feel like that's a sign that my stress levels are starting to drop.

Anyway.  Goodnight, all.  Or good morning.  In any case - see you whenever I wake up!

I am so excited for two good newses in one day!

I think I just almost died.  I got an email that my Trig Exam grade had been posted.  Feeling a lump in my throat, I went to check Blackboard.

I made an 88.

I did not make a C or a D.

I have a 90 average in that class.

I am ok.

My head started buzzing and I had to sit down.

Two good newses today!  An un-dead kitten and a B!

After the week I've had these things feel like major wins.

PHEW.

I just saw Dad and Lisa.

I just saw Dad and Lisa. They are holding up surprisingly ok. They are exhausted, of course, but they are hanging in there. I feel much better now that I've put my eyes on them. 

There is a sliver of good news:  Their kitten, Rumpy, was outside and survived. Losing the girls (Annie and PP - the pups) is still tragic, but at this point any good news feels amazing to me. 

Aside from money if any of you could help with some other sized men's clothing it would be appreciated. I didn't realize that Lisa's son had most of his clothing stored at their place. He wears 40x32 pants, XL shirts, and size 13 shoes. 

Thank you x1000 to everyone who has helped my family through this terrible time. It is greatly appreciated.

Dad is talking a little more today.

Dad is talking a little more today.  Red Cross did help them.  They didn't hear from United Way, so I called.  They gave me phone numbers for food and clothing, but were zero help as far as housing - unless they want to be put up in a shelter, which I'm pretty sure they don't.  United Way told me that some missions may help with money for housing, but they didn't give names or numbers for them.  So that wasn't the best.

Dad said that they are looking at mobile homes today.  I feel better now that he is talking a little more.  It is a relief.  But guess what.  Mobile homes cost money.  So I'm asking again, right now, for money, please.  This is what we need.  This is how you can help.  I really don't care if it's just $5 - it would be more than they had and it is VERY MUCH appreciated.

Also, if any of you know of places that would donate money or help him pay for a place, please leave me their info in a comment.  Thank you, thank you, thank you.

I have regrets. 🙁

I have regrets.  🙁

I haven't seen Dad basically since this semester started last month.  We usually talk or text at least every Sunday if I can't make it out there, though.  Well since I haven't been out there it would follow that I didn't see the pups or kitten, either.  🙁  I mean, look.  Every time we would visit, Annie (one of the dogs) would scream her head off because she was so excited to see us.  LOL  Shadow would play with PP (the other dog) and the kitten.  It was just really nice and it was family.  And we haven't been there in a month and now they are gone and everything is different.  😢

So the house burns and the animals don't make it and I STILL don't go out there.  I keep calling and texting Dad, but every time I hear from him he seems dazed and distant and busy.  I'm sure he's got approximately a billionty things going on right now so I'm trying not to make myself into a problem, but I want to help.  Every time we communicate he tells me not to come down there because there is nothing I can do.  I feel like he's doing this in part to protect me.  I guess any parent probably would.  But I know if the situation were reversed he'd be here with me in a heartbeat.

I am planning to go out there this weekend no matter what he says.  I have some clothes and money from some of you awesome people that I need to take to them.  I know that many of you are still working on things for them and that's ok.  I'll take what I have this weekend and more the next trip.  Tests and studying be damned - I'll be heading to Munford on the weekends just as I was before.  Life is too short for all this "working too hard to see the important ones in your life" kind of crap.  Seriously.

Btw, in two days of asking what Dad needs I finally got ONE thing out of him:  Long Johns.  He's a little thin guy and he's a carpenter and works out in the cold so things that can keep him warm are appreciated.  ❤

Today's Biology lesson:

Today's Biology lesson:  The Laws of Thermodynamics.

Seriously.

OMG - I just found chocolate in my panties. 😂😂😂

OMG - I just found chocolate in my panties.  😂😂😂

I just woke up - late, of course.  I feel like crap.  I'm tired, nauseated, and already fighting a headache.  My face is swollen from crying for like 5 days straight.  I was thinking, "How am I supposed to do this day?  I just want to go back to bed and hide."

So I was getting dressed and I found one of the chocolates that Shaun had hidden.  It was in my underwear drawer.  And you know what?  I cried again.  But they were happier tears, at least.  I can't think of a single better thing for me right now than to be reminded when I least expect it that I am loved and most importantly - not alone.

Kind of the same as when I checked the GoFundMe for my dad.  I've gotten several more donations since I checked last night.  Thank you all.  I will get to the personal "Thank you's" when I'm not about to be late to class.  Everyone please keep sharing and if you have any clothing, etc, anyone at work can accept it for me if I'm not there yet.  Thanks again.  It means a lot to me that so many people are trying to help.  I really appreciate it.  ❤