Today has been pretty rough.

Today has been pretty rough.  I'm cramping, exhausted, feverish, and achy.  There is something going on with me and I am getting pretty worn down by it.  😦😦😦

I went off methotrexate for my psoriasis and arthritis so I'm not shocked that my skin is red and flaky and that my bones hurt.  I'm also not shocked by cramps because, well... I am a female so that happens.  But this fever and fatigue is killer.  It lessened when I was on antibiotics, but now it's back.

I did a thing that is pretty out of character for me today and that was taking some "all natural" turmeric and curcumin something or other pills that I found on Amazon.  It's to help inflammation (which is the cause of my psoriasis and arthritis), and while I normally don't do this kind of thing (I don't 100% trust "Big Pharma," but I also believe that we have man-made drugs for a reason), I really feel like I'm running out of options as an uninsured person.  I have been following up on all the leads you wonderful people give me, but they've all turned up as dead ends so far.  I am just at a loss.  😢

As for the fever, I suspect that I have a bladder infection.  I could be wrong; however, in November I went to St. Michael's to get medicated for arthritis and they told me I had a bladder infection (even though I had no noticeable symptoms) and prescribed me Cipro.  When I went to C.A.R.E.S. the week before last they said I had a bladder infection and gave me Cipro.  Unfortunately, I didn't remember what St. Michael's had prescribed until I dug around through some paperwork this evening and found out.  Apparently, Cipro is not the answer.  🤔  And yes - I finish my antibiotics every time.  I am a good girl.

It looks to me like I will be heading back to the doctor on Friday.  Not tomorrow because that day is booked solid.  We're visiting Shaun's dad in the hospital.  He fell off a ladder today and shattered his elbow is what I hear.  He's supposed to have surgery in the morning.  Then I have to work and then I have class.  At some point during the day I will make time to make an appointment at C.A.R.E.S. so that I don't have to spend all day there on Friday.

Woohoo, my life.  I hope this week is going a little easier on you.  It has me whooped so far.  😕

Ok, I am NOT feeling it today.

Ok, I am NOT feeling it today. I think I'm still sick. I'm cold. I've been exhausted for two days. Blegh.

Next Tuesday is a big day...

Next Tuesday is a big day - Awards Day at GSCC!  I've been nominated again for the Outstanding Achievement Award (I was nominated last year, as well, but didn't win it.  The guy who did totally deserved it, though).  I am also being honored by Who's Who Among College Students, and SSS has nominated me for something, too.  Maybe I will win something, but even if not it's really a nice feeling to be in the running.  Since I technically haven't gone full-time I've never been able to make President's or Dean's list despite my good grades so at least someone notices me.  😝

Wednesday is my induction to Phi Theta Kappa so that's also exciting.

I really don't know how much any of this stuff matters, but I'm going to enjoy the process.  I can honestly say that I've stayed in school and worked hard even when it felt like everything was falling apart around me.  There have been so many times where I thought "This is too much" or "I'm too old for this shit" or "Everything sucks and I need a break," but here I am - a little over two weeks away from graduation.  I am excited!

Too bad my degree will be basically useless without two more years of education, but it symbolizes all the progress I've made and no one can take that from me.  To me it will represent the half-way mark.  It will serve as proof that I can do a thing.  😁😁😁🤣  Go me!  DO ALL THE THINGS!  😜

Bombed my Physics test...

Bombed my Physics test, but I'm still poised to come out of there with a B.  THANK GOODNESS.

Did better on the retakes of the Calculus tests.  I have a 90 now instead of a low B.  On the new cal test I made a 77 which was a bummer because I felt pretty good about it, but that's not the end of the world.  An A is not impossible at this point - I've just gotta stay on top of my game for the rest of this week - plus 2 more.  I think I can!  🙂  But even if not I would accept a B.  These classes are hard!

So curious. 😂😂😂

So curious. 😂😂😂

I got the lawnmower cranked all by my little self!

I got the lawnmower cranked all by my little self!  It should probably be embarrassing how much of an accomplishment that is, but legit - the first crank of the season is no joke.  😄

The kiddo is cutting some grass now and I'm cleaning.  I honestly forgot what having energy to do things felt like.  😞  This is much better! 😁

I opened my email to a message saying...

I opened my email to a message saying "Award Notification" and I swear my heart stopped.  🤣🤣🤣  It was a scholarship notification from JSU.

Unfortunately, it wasn't for the Presidential Scholarship which is THE BIG ONE that I've been trying for (they said I should know something on that one by the end of the month), but that's ok.  I can be patient.

I did get the The Billy S. Lindsey Scholarship which is a small one, but every little bit helps and I am not complaining!

It keeps getting more and more real that I am going to actually go to school there.  Y'all don't even know.  This legit always seemed too big and too far out of reach for me.  💓💓💓