I am wearing leggings, cozy pajama pants, a long-sleeved shirt, the warmest jacket I have, and a hat. I'm indoors and I'm still freezing. My bones in general ache, but also my driving toe hurts, my lower back hurts (I can feel my spine popping in and out of place), and I'm drowsy. All I've wanted to do for the last few days is stay in blankets and / or sleep. There is a little over a month left in this semester and I honestly have no idea how I'm gonna get through it.
I had let the "going to UAB" thing slide because they set my appointment for after the dates they decided to help me within. Now I'm thinking I will follow up with them and get my records sent over like they asked and see what I have to do to extend their help dates to accommodate my appointment. I also might go to the Student Health Center about my back. It really might also be time to start taking a whole Celexa instead of a half.
I don't know if this is normal or what for a person in their 30's to feel like they are falling apart this much in every way, but I am having a really hard time. I have zero problems with putting in work, but this everyday struggle kind of stuff is wearing me down. It only makes it worse to know that I'm not working a job and that I've dropped a class and I STILL feel like life is overwhelming. I feel like I really should be able to handle what I've got going on.
Anyway. I can't believe it's only Monday and I feel this way. I hope the week is going better for y'all. ❤
