I'm home from school. My day has gotten a little better.

I'm home from school. My day has gotten a little better.

I talked to Dr. Kim today about what class I could take that might help me through Linear Algebra the next time I take it.  She suggested that I audit the Calculus series at JSU; unfortunately (fortunately?) I'm not the only person from Gadsden who has struggled in this way.  She thinks that seeing the more theoretical side of Calculus should help.  So, I am going to look into that.

Also, I think I might only take CS classes in the spring.  There are enough I can take that I've already met the pre-reqs for, so I can audit a Cal class (or two) and start preparing for the re-taking of Linear Algebra.  Also, instead of taking Intro to Advanced Math, which I thought would help me with Linear but actually probably won't - I think I am now shooting for taking Combinatorics as my other elective math.  For those of you who don't know, it's basically a counting class.  It probably would have come in handy to take that BEFORE Statistics, but oh well.

Anyway.  I've eaten and now I'm about to take some meds for my bones and possibly nap since my head hurts, too.  I have homework due tonight but I don't really feel like I can think at the moment, so hopefully I can do it later.  Maybe this Monday will be ok after all. Here's hoping.

I am wearing...

I am wearing leggings, cozy pajama pants, a long-sleeved shirt, the warmest jacket I have, and a hat.  I'm indoors and I'm still freezing.  My bones in general ache, but also my driving toe hurts, my lower back hurts (I can feel my spine popping in and out of place), and I'm drowsy.  All I've wanted to do for the last few days is stay in blankets and / or sleep.  There is a little over a month left in this semester and I honestly have no idea how I'm gonna get through it.

I had let the "going to UAB" thing slide because they set my appointment for after the dates they decided to help me within.  Now I'm thinking I will follow up with them and get my records sent over like they asked and see what I have to do to extend their help dates to accommodate my appointment.  I also might go to the Student Health Center about my back.  It really might also be time to start taking a whole Celexa instead of a half.

I don't know if this is normal or what for a person in their 30's to feel like they are falling apart this much in every way, but I am having a really hard time.  I have zero problems with putting in work, but this everyday struggle kind of stuff is wearing me down.  It only makes it worse to know that I'm not working a job and that I've dropped a class and I STILL feel like life is overwhelming.  I feel like I really should be able to handle what I've got going on.

Anyway.  I can't believe it's only Monday and I feel this way.  I hope the week is going better for y'all.  ❤

Halloween cat and Halloween pumpkin. Midna is so weird. 😂😂😂

Halloween cat and Halloween pumpkin. Midna is so weird. 😂😂😂 Kira isn't quite done carving her Jack-o-lantern yet, but Midna is all about it, regardless. She just wants to touch it and lick it and bite it. She is so silly. She doesn't seem to understand why it won't fit in her mouth. She's been doing this since last night.

I did some homework today.

Emma seems to be feeling a bit better.

Home from the vet.

Home from the vet. Emma's passed out. Her tonsils are inflamed. She's got 3 meds to help her feel better. If she doesn't make a drastic improvement over the weekend, he wants to see her back on Monday. Paws crossed that my old puppy girl feels better soon! ❤️

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