Since several people feel that my depression (or not) is up for debate today...

Since several people feel that my depression (or not) is up for debate today I'll just leave it at this:

I feel dead inside.

It's after 3 pm and I still haven't made it out of bed.

I'm feeling "down" and it's not a good time.

I could use some help.

I'm sorry for disappearing.

I'm sorry for disappearing. I received a lot of birthday wishes, which I greatly appreciate and will respond to shortly. I've spent the last few days (birthday included) dealing with another depressive slump, but today feels better.

I spent most of my birthday on the couch being a lump with my dogs. Shaun scraped me up and took me to Olive Garden. We had a big dinner and I got a free piece of Tiramisu, which was delicious. The kids got me a card that they heavily customized and it is perfect. Spending time with my family was the highlight of my day.

I'm not sure why I've felt so down recently. Probably stress. I feel kind of like a failure for doing so poorly in school this semester. I'm just so damn tired. I'll be grateful for the time in my life when I no longer have homework.

Anyway, love to all of my friends. I hope you're all doing well. 🧡

One more day of class next week and that's it before finals.

One more day of class next week and that's it before finals.  I'm 99% sure I'm only going to make it through 2 classes (dropped Abstract Algebra and currently have a 50-something in Networking), but I'm happy about the two classes I'm passing.

Senior Seminar in Mathematics has been fun and interesting, but I will NOT miss writing those 10-page papers, which I'm pretty sure was a large cause of my crippling anxiety this semester.  Disaster Response and Recovery is my online class and it bored me out of my mind.  It is nothing I'm interested in or care about.  So if I don't have to repeat these two classes (and I don't think I will), then I'm happy.

For next semester I've already signed up for Networking again.  I'm also taking Human-Computer Interaction.  Those will be my last two CS classes and I guess I could graduate next semester if I decided to get only one degree.  But I'm also taking Differential Equations next semester and then planning for Abstract Algebra in the summer.  One extra semester for two degrees is ok, but if I can't pass Abstract on the second go around, I'll have to reconsider.

Overall, I'm EXTREMELY ready to put this semester behind me.  I'm looking forward to spring because I don't think it will be bad.  I already know what to expect from Networking and DE so Human-Computer Interaction will be the only new class, but I'm sure it will be fun.

Anyway, I'm off to paint my nails.  I just finished all of the homework I'm doing for the day, so it's time to treat myself.  🙂

8:30 last night: Went to bed

8:30 last night:  Went to bed

Midnight:  Woke up to some pretty serious PMS cramps (never had that happen before)

1 am:  Went back to bed

7:30:  Woke up for appointment and errands

11 am - 12:20 pm:  napped

12:45:  Another appointment

3:30 - 6:45:  napped

I can't seem to get enough sleep the last couple of days. I'm only awake to do some homework and then I'm heading back to bed.

This is wack.

I didn't sleep well and all I want to do is nap with my doggies, but...

I didn't sleep well and all I want to do is nap with my doggies, but I have class today.  Only one more class day this week after today, then next week off, then finals!  I can survive this day.  Probably.  😂😂😂

Lazy Sunday. Chillin' with my homies.

Lazy Sunday. Chillin' with my homies.

It's plant-watering day.

It's plant-watering day. My pearls are shriveled. 😬