My depression has lifted...

My depression has lifted and I've felt pretty good for almost 2 weeks. I like to think that I'm pretty emotionally honest so it's only right to share the ups as well as the downs. I am so grateful for the good days I've been having. I'm enjoying not feeling stressed and tense all of the time. I've been active and productive instead of sleeping all day. I've been more interested in my ani-pals and my plants and my nail polish. I'm on top of my chores as well as knocking things off of my to-do list. The kids and I took advantage of the nice weather yesterday and started cleaning out the garage, which is no small feat.

I'm still on Lexapro for depression and Buspar for anxiety (obviously not quitting either since they are working). Sometimes my brain won't shut up and let me sleep so I take Melatonin. I found some old psoriasis cream in my bedroom and started putting it on my face so I can enjoy my skin for a while. Too bad it doesn't help the remainder of my body (not enough cream left and who has time to medicate literally hundreds of patches every day?), but I'll have insurance this year. It's ok. So things aren't perfect, but my mental health is pretty good and I'm going to make the most of it while it lasts.

I know a lot of you have been struggling as I have. I hope if that's still the case that you catch a break soon, as well. Hang in there. The better days are worth it. ❤️

I'm trying to leave my room...

I'm trying to leave my room so I can get some work done. Booka's napping and isn't going to let me get in the way of that. 😂😂😂 If I leave him here he'll just freak out when he wakes up. 🙄 "How could you leave me alone?!" I love this precious old bad boy.

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I watered some plants today. 😊😍

I watered some plants today. 😊😍

Baby succs, big succs, recovering succs... Lots and lots of succs.

Baby Toes bloomed the other day. This one is funny to me. 🙂

Me, my old doggies, and my tailless Tobi cat...

Me, my old doggies, and my tailless Tobi cat. Kitten chews everything (including my fingers - HARD) so much that we bought him chew toys. I'm sitting here enjoying not having to fight him off my hands and phone for the moment.

That feeling when...

Tfw you're tired and have other things to do, but you're sitting by your dog clipping her toenails one by one when she falls deep enough asleep. 😂😂😂😭😭😭

We just watched Joker...

We just watched Joker and it was really good. I don't say that about movies often, nor do I bother to stay awake for most. 😂 But this kept my attention the whole time. Nice!

Back to school today.

Back to school today. I was late for a few reasons and that was a bummer.

I got maybe 2 hours of sleep last night. I think I was feeling anxious about going back. Also, my boobs were (and still are) causing me an unreasonable amount of pain. On top of that I have several rather painful bruises from being more active over the last week so it was super fun trying to get comfortable. It's always something, I guess.

In any case I barely got to sleep before I had to get up. As you might imagine I had a hard time waking up and left later than I should have. Then once I got to school I had the wrong classroom number in my calendar. Therefore, I went to the wrong classroom. Empty. Professor's office, empty. I logged in to my JSU account and saw my error. Came in 10 minutes late and felt like a douche. But, I got there eventually so I guess that was something.

I came home after class and napped for a few hours. I'm up doing chores and about to have dinner with the kids so I suppose I'm ok. I'm going to go to bed early with some Melatonin and pain reliever tonight and try to get my schedule worked out. So it didn't start out on the best foot, but I think it's going to be fine. I'm excited about my classes so that's always a plus.

I hope you all had a good day. 😊 If not, try again tomorrow!