I slept through walk-in hours at the Student Health Center.

I slept through walk-in hours at the Student Health Center. I'm still running a fever, but I don't feel as bad. In-person classes are canceled for the remainder of the semester. I'm going to go ahead and drop Differential Equations. I missed a quiz today. We are supposed to have an exam next week but I have to finish the house once and for all - assuming I feel well enough to do anything, which I haven't for the last few days. Fun times. Graduation, see you in December.

I just learned on reddit that lady elephants have two boobs.

I just learned on reddit that lady elephants have two boobs. Chest boobs. Just like us! Why did that blow my mind? It makes total sense.

Napping boys. ❤️

Napping boys. ❤️

I felt rough yesterday.

I felt rough yesterday. I woke up today feeling like I was getting a migraine. Migraine meds haven't helped and now I have a fever. I don't know what this is, but I don't want it. 🤒

Current situation:

Current situation:

For the last two days...

For the last two days I've woken up with tension headaches after having nightmares. Some of the nightmares are ridiculous. Some are about school. Some are me being back in situations that I didn't like. I wake up feeling stressed and have a hard time shaking it. It's pretty bad. I've been extremely lucky that I have managed to ward off the impending migraines, but I don't know how much longer that will last if something doesn't give. 

I'm still not done emptying my old house. I have 8 days to finish that. It's a problem. It's taking up a lot of mental space for me. I don't feel calm or able to process things when I know something needs to be finished or when things are in disarray. So my brain feels really un-focus-y and not calm. Also, the time it will take for me to move things and get them sorted out would be better spent studying, but I don't have time to do both. 

Due to that I'm not doing very well in my math class. Well... that's not the only problem, but it's a big one. Unfortunately, Differential Equations requires my full attention and a focused brain - neither of which I can give at this time. It's not working out such that I have a passing grade, but I do enjoy the material. I'm debating whether to drop it or just hang in there so I can learn as much as I can for the next go around. 

I knew we'd have a term paper in my CS class, but we also have 5 smaller papers to write. Those were just assigned a few days ago. I'm not excited about that. I really thought I'd be done with writing papers after last semester. The amount of stress that writing papers gives me is, well... a lot. I'm sure some of my tension headaches are due to those assignments. 

In theory with only two classes I should be able to handle them and do well, but that's really not how I feel that things are going right now.

I'm starting to feel pretty sure that I need to stop worrying about school so much and get a job after I finish the house stuff. I can finish my CS class this semester, take Abstract Algebra over the summer, and Differential Equations this fall, all while working at least part-time. It's later than I wanted to graduate but at this point (even though I desperately want to be finished with school), I feel strongly about not half - assing my classes. I don't want to graduate by the skin of my teeth. Besides, if I graduate in December I can graduate with my best buddy Dinorah. That's definitely a silver lining.

I don't know. I probably talk too much on here about my "problems." But I'm doing some serious thinking about delaying my graduation date. It seems like it would be better for my mental health and for my understanding of the material I'm learning. If anyone has advice, I'm all ears.

I'm so mean.

I'm so mean. Since I was so busy today, this is the first chance I've had to hold him. He's been chasing me all day meowing. I swear it looks like he's smiling. Poor Scar kitty.